Finding Serendipity

2010-08-14T14:40:00.003+08:00

The colourful world once again

It's amazing how life can brings you heartily, warm happiness... This is a feeling i haven't felt it for quite awhile.. I'm so glad that i'm given the chance to feel it once more... Can't really describe the feeling inside of me.. Besides really touched from the magnimous gesture, i finally got the chance to speak to her once again.. It might not be as much, but every single word spoken from her can really tells how thankful and grateful i am in my heart to have the chance once again..

Chances like this doesn't comes by this easily and i realised cherishing the moments are most important than anything else... I'm so glad i have this bunch of people to call on as friends who never failed to be there for me throughout all these years.. It's a destiny that wasn't call upon and comes by so easily..

Contentment really does wonder to one's life... To be contented with what you have is not something everyone can count on for.. Just my twenty cents worth of opinions.. In conclusion, I'm happy with everything i had... cheerios.. =)))

2010-07-10T11:37:00.002+08:00

棉花糖 - 再见王子

那个夏天灿烂耀眼
忽然之间下雨也没人撑伞
是我的初恋那次失眠

你的气味已经飘散
我还留恋心里面共同的声线
你微笑的脸好久不见

时间过了几年长大了一些
心中的那个王子要说再见
再见吧我的王子
守护爱情的样子
让回忆纪念最初感动的真实
满口永远的孩子慢慢懂事
用眼泪灌溉会幸福的种子
再见吧我的王子
梦想还没有消失
我会并着你的勇气一起坚持
晒着艳阳的奔驰勾勾手指
你住的城市会有我的思念因子

后来我们各自旅行
哪些风景最让人容易沈迷
最近常下雨但会天晴

时间过了几年长大了一些
心中的那个王子要说再见
再见吧我的王子
守护爱情的样子
让回忆纪念最初感动的真实
满口永远的孩子慢慢懂事
用眼泪灌溉会幸福的种子
再见吧我的王子
梦想还没有消失
我会并着你的勇气一起坚持
晒着艳阳的奔驰勾勾手指
你住的城市会有我的思念因子
围绕着你
围绕着你

2010-07-10T11:36:00.000+08:00

江明娟-海是你

有时候一个人吹着风
记忆会涌出很多很多
想起你的笑它已经模糊了
那牵着手的约定过的都像是玩笑
没有人会做到也没有什麽不好

哼着你最爱听的情歌
歌里唱的快乐和苦涩
都是别人的谁能比你更懂我呢
生命太拥挤哪怕只是千万分之一
都爱得彻底痛得彻底交出自己

海是你来来去去短暂绚烂地降临
而我们挥霍生命用力沉溺再狠狠分离
天空是你的表情风吹过不留痕迹
如果能说忘记就可以全部都忘记
或许才是结局

哼着你最爱听的情歌
歌里唱的快乐和苦涩
都是别人的谁能比你更懂我呢
生命太拥挤哪怕只是千万分之一
都爱得彻底痛得彻底交出自己

海是你来来去去短暂绚烂地降临
而我们挥霍生命用力沉溺再狠狠分离
天空是你的表情风吹过不留痕迹
如果能说忘记就可以全部都忘记
或许才是结局

海是你来来去去短暂绚烂地降临
而我们挥霍生命用力沉溺再狠狠分离
天空是你的表情风吹过不留痕迹
如果能说忘记就可以全部都忘记
或许才是结局

2010-05-05T21:54:00.002+08:00

Utterly Utterly Disappointed!!!

I'm so freaking pissed off, saddened, disappointed.. all the unbalance emotions you name it i have it... I'm furious, very very furious that it upset me so much so that my mother and i can't sleep well and had to rely on sleeping pills to get to sleep... So much so much that i can't make myself to understand the feeling of my Granny when she signed or placed her right thumb on the paper...

WHY, WHY does it has to be you, the uncle that i had the utmost respect for since young.. How could you bear to do this? How can you do this to Granny and most outrageous that you DARE to hide it from all of us...!!! Is Money really that important to you, since young you're the most THE MOST SENSIBLE AND KIND-HEARTED.. What's gotten into you to have made this decision that i cannot bring myself to forgive you for... No matter who instigated you to do this.. your decision has utterly made me felt so disgusted that i actually thought you ARE the most fillial one son that Granny could count on... And yet this actually happened..

I hate it, seriously i hate it so much so that Granny still had to side on you when i can see how sad she is... Don't come and tell me that Granny do it willingly, she had just mentioned it to me 2 weeks ago that she wouldn't ever remove her name from the owner's category.. And 2 weeks later she changed her mind for something that had been inputted into her for almost 20 over years.. Don't come and expect me to believe... Using buttocks and think, we knew what's your next step to expect and come... How long more could Granny live? Don't come and tell me that you can't jolly wait for that few months or years?????? What the hell....

Why do things had to turn out this way?? I don't understand.. How can you do this.. I'm freaking more don't understand the meaning of FAMILY to you anymore.. It's your actions that made us cannot agree with YOU... Don't come and tell me that you had a clear conscience, which i believe you don't... If you really do, why do you have to hide it FROM ALL OF US.... No It's not, you're just bear selfish.. So selfish that no matter what you do in the future i would agree upon.. the disappointment and the disturbed mind that i'm having now cannot made me felt at peace.. I just cannot forgive this time... No matter what reasons you had, doing this way just disgusted me so much so much... The thought of it hurts me so much.. I cannot bring myself to believe it not even saying to call you uncle if i see you ever again.. You better not let me see you... I don't know what i'll do.... Trust me for that, i'm hopping mad and still had to pretend that i knew nothing and seeing Granny lie in the hospital bed helplessly... SHE IS YOUR GOD-DAMN MOTHER FOR CHRIST SAKE... If she didn't brought you up, can you get married and have kids.. yet this is how you REPAY HER by EYEING on the only PROPERTY that's on her name?????????? I HATE YOU, uncle.... I HATE you.. It's been so long that i had used such strong word on someone.. you made me use it..

2010-04-20T00:42:00.001+08:00

劉若英-我不想念

某一個晚上某閣樓微微燈光
某個人默默關上某心房某扇窗
跟沒有人說晚安
夜從前從來沒這麼長
床荒涼的就像沒有邊疆
失眠是枕頭之上無盡的流浪
天永遠不亮
我不想念不想念他模樣
我不想念他肩膀輕擁著我肩膀
我不想念他吻著我臉龐
把永遠說成一顆糖
某空港某車站某個下一站
某一扇車窗某風景喚醒惆悵
某南方搖搖晃晃某海洋某艘船
誰沒妄想有天堂
當人活成了一棵仙人掌
掌心的淚卻還是滾燙
每當撫摸那些天真致命傷
恨不能健忘
我不想念不想念他模樣
我不想念他肩膀輕擁著我肩膀
我不想念他吻著我臉龐
把永遠說成一顆糖
我不想念不想念那時光
那些快樂和悲傷卻總在我身旁
我只愿長夜將盡天快亮
讓想念的歌不再唱
我只愿長夜將盡天快亮
讓想念的歌不再唱
讓想念的歌不再傷
讓想念的歌不要再唱

2010-04-19T23:18:00.006+08:00

Bits and Pieces

I have bid goodbye to my old workplace and moved over to a new one recently... Well, so far so good i'm working hard and happily as much as i can.. But somehow felt that i am under utilise for this moment.. haha.. It's been almost 2 weeks since i started work... Am a happy ger there for now.. That's Human isn't it... When you're overloaded you complained non stop and blurt out all grievances you had in your heart.. After a change and the pace is slightly slower, you complained of nothing to do.. CONTRADICTING!!!... lolxx...

But i'm more or less contented for now.. picking up slightly fast and my head is quite satisfied for now.. Hopefully things will turn out well and there'll be progression soon enough... I'll work hard... Well, some updates of my life... 16 Apr 2010, the day i'm so looking forward to, failed me.. Cause i FAILED my TP.. =( saddened... Quite a pity that i failed, overly anxious and pressured till my mind's a blank.. Shit... But well, gained an experience and i work hard to pass the next round.. Never GIVE UP.. hahhaa... And met up with Jiayi.. Finally after so long, wanted Ting to be around too but she's all cooped up with the married life you see.. hahaha...

Everytime i met up with my dear gal, Jiayi she never failed to give me some enlightenment here and there and always set me thinking again... hahaha... This is what i like about having meetups with old old friend.. At some point of time, we learnt from each other as we're all going through different stages of life though of similar or same age.. Some progress faster, some slower... I'm at the slower stages, hence hearing life stories example and sharing life experiences.. W e gain a chance to look at life with a different perspective... And you only will hear true and sincere comments of you from the ones that treat you sincerely as friend.. I'm glad i still have some left thought i lost 2... But that does not defeat me.. Because i still believe that one day when we look back.. I had learnt so much from the experiences i've been through and the lessons learnt from those i lost.. Hopefully one day just one day, i'll have the chance to regain the once lost friendships and learnt more as i move on day by day in life...

Jiayi reminded me of the WANTS vs The NEEDS.... This made me ponder and venture into this topic... Because i mentioned about moving out as my sibilings are all growing up rapidly as time passed... I cannot be having the room by myself as Gabriel is a guy, he needs to live alone as he grows older... Well, i admit i'm still immature for this as i want my own personal space and want to live in the room by myself without sharing with anyone.. For this point i admit i WANT and i'm abit selfish in this sense... I still cannot come to terms with me losing this only personal space that i owned for twenty over years... Sorry gal... hehe.. after thoughts i still can't bear to lose this little space of my own.. But i believe this would prompt me to work harder in achieving my financial freedom and to own a space truly of my own.... =)

There's one part which i couldn't help but agree with Jiayi and that is my perspective of future.. I hate to admit this but i had indeed shut my door from Relationship Love and had plans only for an individual, ME. I have not forsee that one day i might met another "the One" to come into my life.. Because of my closure of my heart, my plans for the next 5 years only focus on myself living alone and not fantasizing of getting married... I would be lying if i said i don't want someone to lean on.. I yearn for it sometimes especially when i recalled those memories which i only allowed myself to thought of it occasionally so as not to go emo-ing again... Maybe i haven't meet the one yet, but i didn't consider the possibility of me meeting one...

Seriously, i've been single for around 3 years, had infatuations of unrealistic pinning to facing the reality that i just ain't keen in having one... This is one part that i did open myself to.. I am open to the ideas of meeting new friends and guys but i ended up in being just friends with them.. And also considering the fact that i'm a FAT but Happy ger now of course physically attraction i had already lost to many of the young mei meis out there.. hahaha.. Where would guys be bother to venture to my inner character??? hahaha... Well, this doesn't really bother me, as long as i see all my friends i kept in my heart found happiness i'll be heartily contented and happy for them... That's enough for the time being... Maybe i had find some contentment in one way or another.. But will ponder on more till i reach a conclusion, because i believe that LOVE this thingy, the more you pursue, the more it will eludes you... Maybe just maybe.. hahaha...

Will go into this once i reached a conclusion.. Let time tells... lolzz... Nitey..

最亲爱的-梁文音

没开口问的你忐忑反驳
从你的语气里听懂了
不自然的歉疚代表什麽
前座的线索忍住的颤抖
还想揣摩如果开往他的门口
谎你会怎麽说
最亲爱的最後最远离了
最美好的最後最是痛了
我宁愿你是对的
伤人地拉扯不如哭着自由
最亲爱的最後最遗憾了
最该走的最後最难转身
我真的被爱过了
你才要我先割舍不是吗亲爱的
越是抱紧你越感受裂缝
最害怕的终於成真了
决定却比想像中还沉重
我多想相信你也不舍得
否则那些陌生简讯声震动了
你怎麽还没走
最亲爱的最後最远离了
最美好的最後最是痛了
我宁愿你是对的
伤人地拉扯不如哭着自由
最亲爱的最後最遗憾了
最该走的最後最难转身
我真的被爱过了
你才要我先割舍不是吗亲爱的
最亲爱的最後最远离了
最美好的最後最是痛了
我宁愿你是对的
伤人地拉扯不如哭着自由
最亲爱的最後最遗憾了
最该走的最後最难转身
我真的被爱过了
你才要我先割舍不是吗亲爱的

2010-04-10T00:13:00.004+08:00

Numbness

Just some random thoughts running through my mind now.. I haven't been more unfeeling towards everything i heard or seen before... Sometimes, things just ain't the way it picture itself, but before you even come to terms with it... Things happened and it often caught you spot on and you wouldn't even have time to even think about it....

Somehow i'm kinda immune and numb to all these emotional stuff, i don't want to face it neither do i want to get involve.. But things often don't go the way you want it to, but definately the way you mostly don't want it... what a joke.. Is heaven's trying to play a joke on me? i guess probably true... People always said there's no smooth sailing life and life full of ups and downs.... but when you had already experienced more DOWNS then ups... you definately have a clearer picture of how should you portray your outlook of life...

Continue being negetive will only create MORE downs... having a positive outlook might have been a better way to live life.... Life's short, take things easier maybe it'll prolong your life.. haha.... wishingful thinking... I don't know what i am ranting on for, i just felt that in life there are so many decisions to be made and think for.. but once decisions gone wrong, you would have to bear the responsibility be it the consequences.. Everybody deserves a second chance, to live with your mistakes and learnt from them....

Just some rubbish comments... i just wanna rant on for fun because in my heart i just felt unbalance somehow here nor there.. just cannot describe those feelings in words....

郭美美-二人同行

2010-04-10T00:07:00.000+08:00

郭美美二人同行

勇气带加上宽容
在加无止境溜光的等候
以为这些付出等于美好结果
你却说凭什么

我相信你爱护我
只是爱没有想像中的多
对天空的辽阔来说云算什么
你不会懂我渺小得多宽容

* 爱你不重我要自己不要放开手
不痛不痛心却独自跳的好寂寞
幸福那个一个美梦是二人同行才有
你渐渐缺席让我悲叹在未来的入口

# 爱你不重尽管我无力再向前走
不痛不痛就算辛苦得震耳欲聋
爱你我爱到最后剩回忆这个朋友
爱情从二人同行变成我一个默默后承受

我想过很多以后幻想过快乐也愉悦心痛
爱就像是偏执的风改雾悬空
只问前进忘了要怎么降落

爱你不重
不痛不痛就算辛苦得震耳欲聋
爱你我爱到最后剩回忆这个朋友
爱情从二人同行变成我一个默默后承受

Great singing, Nice songss..

2010-04-02T03:10:00.003+08:00

Personally, I HEART her songs so much.... Sharing them...

A-Lin ~ 现在我很幸福

A-Lin以前，以後

A-Lin - 分手需要練習的

Alin - 失戀無罪

ALin-愛請問怎麼走

A-Lin - 今晚你想念的人是不是我

aLin - 做我自己

ALIN-换季

ALin - 難得

S.H.E-收留我

2010-04-02T02:45:00.001+08:00

To all my dearest Friends,
ANYONE WANNA KEEP ME??? Lolxx...
Let's all grow old together and nothing else to change our friendship..

S.H.E-收留我

你说他像情圣眼睛亮晶晶
但是他在心里藏着秘密
更别提他一喝酒就会发神经
不懂珍惜你对她的真心
除了纪念还是这些问题每次总在才在他的心情
臭男生不成长女生伤心
如果他永远不听永远就是解救多一个老小姐
好怕到最后孤零零
等你收留我那又怎么样
难道我会让你淋雨
就算没有另一半也有好朋友
一起唱歌做伴发呆
好姐妹好自由
当你收留我嘿耶~
但是你不见他全身不对劲
盯太紧又怕他不能呼吸
你早已陷进去他像你的遥控器
就好像被判了无期徒刑
除了纪念还是这些问题每次总在才在他的心情
说了不听都是你自己有病
如果他真的没有肩膀就置身我们陪你一起扛
不怕到最后赖定你
等你收留我那又怎么样
难道我会让你哭泣
就算变成老太婆也是好朋友
一起看书跳舞shopping
好姐妹好快乐
等你收留我守来幸福(你好幸福)
让我们盖着民宿
不当公主就开心当村姑
不再孤独不认输
等你收留我那又怎么样(拜托~)
难道我会让你淋雨
就算没有另一半也有好朋友
一起唱歌做伴发呆
等你收留我那又怎么样
难道我会让你哭泣
就算变成老太婆也是好朋友
一起看书跳舞shopping
好姐妹好快乐
等你收留我

少了一个人 - S.H.E

2010-04-02T02:41:00.001+08:00

朋友聚会吵闹的快乐
在她们离开以后变稀薄
走路回家回像山洞的窝
突然渴望有人能来接我
泡著热水在浴室赖著
思念却也被滚烫冒烟了
最后的简讯看到能背了
多久没有再联络一想还是痛

少了一个人宠爱我
朋友的爱成分就是不同
最难过是笑著面对被羡慕自由
练很久的成熟也快遮掩不住寂寞

妈妈在电话裏挂念我
上次欲言又止她还记得
喜欢装没事其实最累了
但我清楚很多事哭了也没用

少了一个人拥抱我
那种拥抱能够忘了所有
两个人就算下雪后赤脚逆著风
也不觉得冰冻还笑得比阳光炽热

少了一个人懂得我
能够体会我倔强又脆弱
不记仇温柔原谅我情绪太波动
用泪光舍不得
融化我累积的寂寞

很固执无条件爱我从来没变过
在大吵的时候会抱著我沉默不动

how difficult is difficult??!???!!

2010-03-30T12:01:00.007+08:00

Simplicity ??!!??

I am seriously very very unhappy today, so much so that it has affected my exam... Over the years, my temper has diminish more or less into a calmer state... I wouldn't flare up and showed my temper without any ABC reasons... There are many things and matters i have always got upset, ranted it out and got over with it and pushed it to the back of my head... But this matter that happened this morning, reallly really just cannot get off my chest.. so much so that i wouldn't know if by typing it out here will ease my pain a little...

I admit i ain't no perfect person at all, i do not have the best personality at all... However, there are still some minimal dignity and integrity i would like to preserve... Yes, i have lied to my once best friend before and caused her to leave me out of her life.. But i have to get on with life living and facing this mistake... But ever since that incident, i had no intention of deceiving or making up lies to anyone.. Because i made it a point to not tell lies unless really really no choice to avoid or prevent something bad to happen... i just want to live my life saying as much truth as possible... Never ever would i expect that telling the truth will also get myself in trouble.. Am i really destined to be so suay..

How can i be judged for being a liar and cheat just for the medical bills and that i can be accuse of faking illness just to stay in hospital 1 night and den discharge and so fit to go up to genting and enjoy a whole lot of myself using the granted hospitalisation leave??? Did you all ever thought of my feelings, should i lie and hide abt the fact that i did went up to Genting due to the simplest reason in the world, i do not want to waste the money since doctor discharged me on Saturday.. Is Singapore hospital so easy to check in for 1 night stay to fake illness and i would chose the day before to check-in into hospital just to geng MC and then go up to enjoy myself with the 5 days hospitalisation leave??!! Moreover, why should i put in so much effort to claim for an amount that is no hard cash involved at all... What benefit do i attain from it..???

Just because i did not say that i am going up to Genting and i'll fake illness just to check in to hospital for a 1 night stay.. I applied for leave 2 months ago, HR approved my leave and doctor discharged me on Sat not because i requested to... Having a simple mindset also wrong? Don't want to waste money also wrong.. Just because i went up to Genting and facebook i am tagged with all the photos... I can jolly well lie and hide the whole trip and tell everyone DO NO TAG ME IN FACEBOOK... Hide it up and lie about it will make you all happier?? Lies are nicer to hear than truth???... Being truthful and open also wrong? What is happening to this world? Being accuse and stab this way.. I have smsed and informed YOU, but why stab me at the back this way... YOU knew it right from the beginning and YOU ARE DISAPPOINTED IN ME!!!!!

I shouldn't be suffering for this, but explaining means i'm trying to hide.... I'll have a CLEAR CONSCIENCE for this... " REN ZAI ZUO TIAN ZAI KAN... WO XING DE ZHENG ZHAN DE WEN".... I just can't help but felt pain over this.... Why?!!! ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH............................

2010-02-01T23:35:00.001+08:00

你好不好

你什么都没说只是牵着我的手
那一秒钟也胜过一句爱我
你手中的温柔还在我心里逗留
爱情却已变成停格的镜头
感觉少了些什么
你好不好当你开口对我这么说
我就懂了你做的选择爱若让你变得不快乐
我宁愿还给你自由
也许我应该保持沉默
留给彼此一个再见的理由
但在你转身后眼泪却不停流
我并不是懦弱害怕面对独自生活
只是你的影子总跟着我走
让我的心不自由
我想我已学会了和寂寞做朋友
只是我想起你居然有一道伤口
隐隐作痛

2010-01-21T22:59:00.003+08:00

偶尔, Sometimes

我们都曾经失去爱情

从你的身上我认识刻骨铭心

错过的花季我的心也纠结成体

我们都曾经非常努力却常常的叹息

常常有了疑问句所以我离去

偶尔很清醒偶尔却抗拒

偶尔有睡意偶尔很伤心

当我们反复联系想让爱归零

但无能为力

偶尔很开心偶尔却下雨

偶尔有梦醒偶尔很想你

当我们总是安静也做了决定

却不要再见你

Just a random flow of emotions and thought...

2010-01-01T13:48:00.007+08:00

Happy Year 2010

Happy year 2010!!!!!! As promised, i would end year 2009 with a closing and my NEW YEAR RESOLUTIONS, wahaha... and the story goes....... lol....

Year 2009

It is pretty much peaceful for me, i had my challenges in work, though salary did not increase, boo but had been assigned with many impossible tasks and i had achieved some of them and few more to come.. At the final straw, i was complaining high and low of the heavy workload, but i am glad in my capability i had done it within my best and thankfully they all went off well... With my final straw, though new challenges are coming in as i am being regarded as to be 1 of the lucky chosen 1 to be developed by the company, i had decided to leave the company when bonus is released by End of Jan if there is any....

Relationship wise, it is still empty as i had the mindset of focusing on my studies and career... All i wanna developed are the friendships i had losted and gained during the past years, this is my top priotiy for now... Cherishing them and hopefully regaining them as much as i could do.. afterall, we crossing one another's path isn't an easy affair.... I wouldn't want to put in any focus in my relationship, as long as witnessed and be able to share the joy of my friends i am contented and happy. After all nothing beats the contentment in life as you would be as happy as a lark.. lolxx... Once bitten, twice shy, let fate arranged for itself...

Health and body wise, well i am still as fat as ever ahahhaha... my weight has been yoyo-ing up and down.. Not been excercising at the final quarter of the year as the time is mainly spent in office OT-ing... Damn it.. Health wise, it is getting much better, but my body posture, tsk tsk, cannot make it... I would resolve it in the new year..

Family wise, i lost my dear Grandpa at the final stage of the year... but i guess all would improve and i will now treasure much more than ever... After all, i have learnt the true lessons in life and i would bear it in mind more than anyone else..

Study, i enrolled myself in the subject which i am interested in and starting all over again as a student life part time... haha... Finished 1 module so far but wouldn't know the results yet... I promised myself that i must graduate before i turn 30 years old with a square hat photograph.. hehe...

Basically, Year 2009 is quite a rewarding and peaceful year spent.. With room of improvement though =)... Goodbye Year 2009,thank you for being with me.... & HELLO, Year 2010!!!!!! =)

Year 2010

I ushered in the new year with the group of company i never thought i would ever have the chance again.... Yes, my sec school vball friends... ever since 04.12.07 i had only left Bee hui, Saw Sean and Ying Ying by my side... I am glad that i had the chance to spent it with them and i even had the best gift of the year... Ying's USB port drive and Huiyee's momento brought back from Australia... When she passed the forever keychain and mini Vodk-vanilla flavour to me without words, in my heart i am so touched, typing out this part, tears are briming in my eyes... Yesterday i was too, but i controlled it... Though we didn't really talked and get her forgiveness and understanding but i am glad that at the very least i had the chance to spend time with her indirectly... i'm happy and contented enough already, really... A pity i didn't get to see Felice, but i really hope one day, just one fine day i would be able to meet up with them both and apologise to them personally...This has been kept in my heart till now... And it's wasn't easy living life with a guilted heart, i can put it down but never forget it... So Year 2010 is ushered in goodness, i wish to believe in that Year 2o10 would be filled with happiness...

Coming down to the final part of New Year resolutions, we had talked and joked about it last night that every year our resolution would not change that is to keep on dieting.. hahahha.. Which is true for all of us, lolx.... And i promised this year, 2010 i would keep it off once and for all for good...

New Year resolutions, Year 2010:

1) Good Health , safety, good luck, love, and happiness to be with all my family and friends..

2)May all my family, friends and my wishes to be granted..

3) Smooth sailing career prospect for me... ( Let me be in my dream job and dream pay)

4) Graduated with good results and go on to university (with breeze, =P)..

5) Dieting & EXCERCISE to reduce the weight and slim down

6) Passed my Car License!!!!

More wealth, more clothes, more of a little of everything..

7) Be richer and not poorer in emotions and relationships with people..

8)Win 4D or Toto... Lolxxx

9)Stay happy, carefree and cheerful owaes..

10)Be with my friends and family with ups & downs.. We'll face it together...

Hehe, that's about all for now.. More to come... I gonna go get prepared for Shan's Wedding... See! I have my joy of happiness to kickstart Year 2010... I'm happy and contented already.. I've gotta a feeling that this year's gonna be a good year and this year gonna be a good, Good, GOOD year.... Ciaoz... Happy New Year!!!

With Loves,

Gernice a.k.a Seowli =)

Specially dedicated to all my friends and the ones i have lost, in my heart we're friends forever even though i am not in yours...

And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of the night in June
I Didn't know much of love, but it came too soon
And There was me and you, and then it got real blue
Stay at home talkin' on the telephone and
We would get so excited, we'd get so scared
Laughing at our selves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels

As we go on, we remember
All the times we had together
And as our lives change, from whatever
We will still be, friends forever

So if we get the big jobs and we make the big money
When we look back now, will that joke still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Can Heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan?
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
And this is how it feels

La, la, la, la; yeah, yeah, yeah
La, la, la, la, we will still be friends forever

Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there? Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly

2009-12-27T22:00:00.003+08:00

Happy Belated Xmas 2009!!!!!

It's the time of the year once again... Year ending in another say, 4 days? It's always been a time for self-reflection and to look back what have one been up to... I would say for me, tonight is not the time to reflect, as i just lost one of my next-of-kin a week ago.. My Paternal Grandfather, he passed away peacefully on 18 December 2009.... I was half way working when Dad called me at 4plus in the afternoon and asked me if i was ready to go off... Though i was shocked but i have never expect the news.. it came upon me just in a snap when i'm deeply buried in my heavy workload...

You know, ever since i experienced 2 consecutives deaths in a row of my uncle and dearest brother in Year 1998... I since had developed a phobia with funeral... It wasn't an pleasant experience, of course i knew it very well that death is inevitable for everyone in the whole wide world, but as much as i can avoid it i would try my very best to... When i heard the news from my dad, seriously i do not know how to react at all... Or to say, i did not have any other reaction at all i just continued typing away in my computer. Only after i managed to react over then i realised that i have to face my fear once again... I'm well known for a cry baby, which means be it whatever emotions i had in me, shedding tears is the only way to express myself.. But when i reached the wake, i did not shed a single tears while my aunts, uncles including my dad and granny weeped siliently in between times.. I had the urge to cry but yet i controlled it...

I realised it wasn't easy to stop myself, a crybaby from dropping tears yet i did it... I don't know if that would meant that i had become stronger or just that i just wasn't in the situation yet... but on the day of the send-off no matter how much i had tried to control my tears from dropping, i can't. In my mind, i was reminded of the scene of the day of my brother's send-off... eveything was the same... except that the body inside was my grandpa... it's just so tormenting evey moment to repeat the sad scene... During the send-off, in my mind was full of memories of my childhood times with my grandpa... It just creeped into my mind and started playing on it's own... And also the cruel fact that how much time i have spent with my grandpa when i have grown up...

Whatever it is, Grandpa i'll miss you.... 爷爷，一路走好。。。

Coming back to Xmas.. Spent my Xmas with HIC pals, we organised a cozy little steamboat affair at my house... Food solely prepared by Miss Hua Hua and i am the venue sponsor.. hahaha.... After that, we went to JP to watch "刺陵" by Jay Chou & Lin Chi Ling... personally i felt that the story line is quite good... But i guess others would criticise it as a waste of time and money.. Saturday, i went to Orchard and rebonded my hair... had a new dumb haircut lolxx.... but well it's letting the hairstylist playing with my hair while i'm still considered YOUNG.. hahahaha... =ppPp.... After that, went Kinokuniya to buy my favourite magazines and home sweet home.. After that, went to Mono for Shelly's april fool's day lolxx... ( to celebrate her birthday...) and had a very fun time... particlularly i do not have much to share, work is definately very very very tedious... With more to come.. i'm looking forward to Shan's wedding.. hehe... night... Oh ya, while having fun last night, came across this song which reminds me of our sec school days... A nice song to share...

不哭 -- 林晓培

如果爱你是种盲目
我不在乎没了退路
要拿永远当赌注
才算数
当爱变得毫不在乎
你的自私我的不服
风追逐云的影子
太无助
我能说出一千个一万个理由去爱你
也能找出一千个一万个理由去恨你
这么投入都不够
还能再说什么
留下苦自己吞服
已分胜负早该醒悟
我能说出一千个一万个理由去爱你
也能找出一千个一万个理由去恨你
用坚强掩饰脆弱
忘记你的全部
这段情我是俘虏
输得彻底却给你祝福
忍住不哭

2009-11-28T01:52:00.002+08:00

Precious time

It's been 2 months since i last blog, was unsure if there's anyone reading it.. that does not really matter, i just wanted to have a space on my own to rant all my thoughts and also to reminisce and reflect in the future when i read them through all over again..

Time is really flying in rocket speed... In a blink of an eye, 25 years of my time has past.... i'm really pondering hard what have i been up to all these 10 years since i graduated from Secondary school... It's like ever since i step into the society and work till now i have yet to accomplish anything as yet.. I don't know over the years what have i gathered, perhaps some working experience or maybe even none... This is what many relate to as Mid-twenties crisis i suppose... That you've reached the mid twenties age gauge and yet you are still wondering and thinking hard of what have you achieve or what would you like to achieve? I guess i'm starting to feel it now?.. As i am thinking of leaving my current job and company yet i do not know what should i go for next... This is driving me nuts, firstly the work load now i am handling is so heavy and stressful... secondly, i hate to have the feeling of dragging myself to work the moment i open my eyes in the morning, yet at the same time am grateful that i managed to open my eyes to another brand new day... this means that i'm alive and i had the chance to live for another day... which is whatever the reason that made me leave my bed and prepare for work and the moment i reached my workplace, the energy level straight away reduce to 20% of what i am when during weekends...this is really crazy....

Alright, enough if ranting on of work, i'll deal with this issue abit later at the very least after my exams.. meanwhile for livelihood, i'll grit my teeth and bear with it for the moment though i'm jolly well aware that my appriasal is coming up... bleahzzzz.... I'll work hard and mug for my exams after this post.. hehe.. Study hard, work hard and play hard has kinda of become my motto... hahahahah...

Well, why am i ranting on none stop on time is because i have been affected badly on death.. In the past, i am a stupid fool that wanted to end my life with the lousiest reasons... and yet for now i am striving hard to cherish whatever time i have left and pray to god to not take me away so fast as i still had lots not being done yet... 2 days ago, my neighbour had ran over an old lady while she's crossing her road... It happened at the juntion between Huiyee's and my house, the tragedy happened early in the morning around 7.15am.. Both parties are pitiful as the old lady is dead and my neighbour, the sole-breadwinner of his household has to be jailed and punished for his mistakes... I pity the both of them as i am sure nobody would want this to happened... And myself i am so happy and excited in learning driving... because the instructor said i am picking it up quite fast as a lady.... I have already drove out to the main road during the 2nd lesson.... And the next day i came upon this news, furthermore i saw the old lady being covered in White cloth when i passed by...

It's so saddening and scary that life is so fragile... so fragile that it cannot take any blows at all.... But life as it is, our lifespan are pre-destinated the moment we arrive in the world.. Hence, there isn't much time of ours to be wasted on unimportant matters... I don't wanna be a poor woman when i leave this world.... poor does not meant in monetary comparison, but in kinship, relationship and friendship.. i believe even i had the whole of world's money, without kinshipm relationship and friendship, one had wasted his/ her life living....

For now, this is what i believe in.. alright back to mugging.... Update again when i had the time as Dec 09 is gonna be a busy month for me but i am loving it as my closure of this year would be a nice one.. Hopefully the next year i'll be better.... i'll definately give a closure to year 2009 before it ends... Nites for now.. till we meet again... =)

2009-11-28T00:56:00.011+08:00

哭过就好了 - 梁文音

不喜欢怀疑什麽

并不表示我没有感受

看你微妙的变化慢慢不同

我不是生气只是心痛

最讨厌被误会了

但越解释越觉得难过

你可以说人会变

但不能说你会这麽做是我的错

哭过就好了

伤都会好的

这样相信所以深呼吸著割舍

爱是为了拥抱为了牵手

不是为了争吵为了调头

哭过就好了
痛都会走的

记忆有限所以它会淘汰坏的

失眠听歌想念虽然苦涩

还是谢谢你让我长大了

越多美好堆叠的过往

想忘就得推倒更大的悲伤

要找勇气却不在口袋或手上

但它一定在我身上某个地方

哭过就好了

痛都会走的

记忆有限所以它会淘汰坏的

失眠听歌想念虽然苦涩

还是谢谢你让我长大了

温岚- 刺猬

最后一抹的微笑
在转身之后
我闭上眼哭了
仅存的一点点骄傲
华丽的外表终于丢掉
很彷徨很孤单是寂寞或
悲惨一个人该怎么办

像是刺猬般防范
伪装的勇敢
不轻易让你看穿
我以为可以很坦然
面对分开时不觉得伤感
然而将灯关上一片无
声黑暗心痛的大声呼喊
我想我没那么坚强每个女孩其实一样
渴望着爱情的好渴望被拥抱
却都害怕爱让人受伤
承认我没那么坚强
不过是一而再的逞强
小心将情绪收藏比傻瓜还傻
刺猬的坚强全都是假象哭吧

我想我没那么坚强每个女孩其实一样
渴望着爱情的好渴望被拥抱
却都害怕爱让人受伤
承认我没那么坚强
不过是一而再的逞强
小心将情绪收藏比傻瓜还傻
刺猬的坚强全都是假象哭吧

我爱他-丁当

他的镜框留在某一节车厢
地下铁里的风比回忆还重
整座城市一直等着我
有一段感情还在漂泊

对他唯一(如果还有)遗憾是分手那天
我奔腾的眼泪都停不下来
若那一刻重来我不哭
让他知道我可以很好

我爱他轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘
曾为他相信明天就是未来
情节有多坏都不肯醒来

我爱他跌跌撞撞到绝望
我的心深深伤过却不会忘
我和他不再属于这个地方
最初的天堂最重的荒唐

如果还有遗憾又怎么样呢
伤了痛了懂了就能好了吗
曾经依靠彼此的肩膀
如今各自在人海流浪

我爱他轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘
逃不开爱越深越互相伤害
越深的依赖越多的空白
该怎么去爱
我爱他轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘
曾为他相信明天就是未来
情节有多坏都不肯醒来

我爱他跌跌撞撞到绝望
我的心深深伤过却不会忘
我和他不再属于这个地方
最初的天堂最重的荒唐

如果还有遗憾又怎么样呢
伤了痛了懂了就能好了吗
我奔腾的眼泪都停不下来
若那一刻重来我不哭
让他知道我可以很好

2009-09-16T17:31:00.006+08:00

Misses

It's miraculously unbelievable... I had the honour of spending the happiest, touching & most unforgettable birthday. Yes, it's my 25th birthday, a quarter of a century when i had stayed alive in this revolving world. I know it's almost a month's late for this post, nonetheless i would still like to relive & keep this lovely memories alive in my heart & my mind. 25 yrs of my life journey, i would say it wasn't easy at all... the downs time i had are so much more than my ups time and i realised it's a very simple word that caused most of my down periods.. " LOVE"

" LOVE" should or could have been a beautiful & touching word, yet i think i had misinterpreted it for the past 25 yrs of my life... That's damn bad for a person whom used a quarter of her life figuring out the meaning.. till now i haven't grasp the meaning yet, and am still trying hard... Hopefully someday, just someday i would be enlightened... I guess i am savouring it somehow... There are alot more to be done for this 4 letters yet with bombastic meaning... =)

Life been pretty hectic & crazy for me the past 1 month... Though tired yet meaningful, letting go of something isn't easy but once you had let go... you would walk like a breeze, i'm smiling now more than ever... I'm happy now with what i have, and i had mustered the courage to leave him a message, though his return msg is cold and normal but i had did my part... so i'm pretty much alright, it wasn't that easy to face up to the fact....

I had great friends around me, though seldom contact i took up the initative to try to like keep in touch with them... I had lost 2, and i don't want to lose anymore of them.. Sometimes though busy, a message of greeting warms up the heart.. Life is as simply as that, i wished i had realised that much much much earlier!!!! What to do, that's life not all times people can see as clearly as they thought so.... i'm evolving, i wanna be that someone not anyone's shadow but just me, as everyone is unique, once i breached trust and it's hard to trust my words but i am human, i do err... What's important is that i want and will not repeat again.. Give me a chance to start afresh and i am treating pple using my heart now, not said in the past i don't, but i had been blinded before....

For the rest of my remaining days in life, give me a chance to start anew, afresh... a crack is always a crack it would not be erased, the only difference is to mend and minimise the gap of the crack.. Sometimes not doing anything beats to doing something, as long as i kept it close to my heart... There's never enough words to describe my feelings, cause it's hard to let it out when you're in my shoes... I would not procastinate anymore, but go on living life to my fullest in my capability... i guess that enough, put down all the unhappiness and pain... in life, what matters most is i am contented & happy.. And never give up on hope... Though the more you hope, there might be more disappointments... disappointments can be accepted but once you live without hope, life is meaningless.. I once did, but now i won't anymore because after 1 down, the next would always be an up... To fall or fail is small matter, what's worse is to fall and not able to get up... I thought i would never be able to get up, though i took a long & hard route i still manage to get up... And the next time i fall, you will see me getting up faster cause i never want history to repeat itself ever again.. that's a promise made to myself that i'll keep as much as the promise of not smoking ever in my life.... i had tried a few puffs, of course that is to experience it but it's not nice.. i meant it..

Alright, got to mug and complete my project today.... I miss beach, but i can't go tomorrow cause i'm going for my pool diving sessions tomorrow hurray... I'm leaving for Tioman next weekend... By then, pple... =))) =PPppP

2009-08-17T00:46:00.003+08:00

Fragments of life...

I haven't been blogging for quite a couple of weeks... Life has been torrentous for me, the past weeks... One week i had a brush with H1N1, yes i was ill for a whole 7 days with high fever running & symptons of H1N1 for 6 days.. and 2 doctors' visit... had 39.4 deg celsius of fever for 4 consecutive days... When doctor diagnosed me with H1N1, i thought to myself, oh shit i had just begin to treasure life more, does that means i would not have the chance? I had twice thought and attempted to end my life... yet when i finally wanna lead and treasure my life with no more regrets,i am so afraid i would not get the chance? Thank god, i recovered, but right after i recovered, my house was hit with a funeral.. My Step-dad's mum passed away in our house last wed... which i witnessed the life slipped away right before my eyes... She passed away peacefully with her beloved son watching her go.. Everything happened so fast that it hit the step dad so hard... I believe the loss of his mother made him shed his tears into his heart because i saw his eyes reddened yet he controlled his tears...

Tomorrow ( Monday) we would be sending her off for the last journey of her life.. Having lived for 80 years being a great grand mother and 4 generations living together, the granny is considered a lucky woman... not easy and lucky to be able to witness 4 generations... Her passing on really make me feel that life is indeed so fragile, and that to live everyday to the fullest and do whatever it takes to fulfill your dreams, regrets that already had been in your life, keep it in heart to remind you never to let it happen again and for the rest of our remaining life, to not and never create more regrets...

It's easy typing it or even saying it... But i made myself this vow that i would do whatever i can to not have anymore regrets and to live my remaining years fulfiiling my dreams and whatever i wanna do... Because you'll never know when life would slip away... Tomorrow is a brand new day... Smile and live it on, no matter how tough, because it gets tougher day by day...

2009-07-22T19:33:00.002+08:00

Smile - Charlie Chaplin

Smile tho'your heart is aching,

Smile Even though it's breaking,

When there are clouds in the sky-

You'll get by,

If youSmile

through your fear and sorrow,

Smile and maybe tomorrow

You'll see the sun come shining through-

For you.

Light up your face with gladness,

Hide ev'ry trace of sadness,

Altho' a tear may be ever so near,

That's the time you must keep on trying,

Smile- What's the use of crying,

You'll find that life is still worthwhile,

If you just smile.

2009-07-21T23:07:00.005+08:00

LIFETIME DEATH SENTENCE....

Sometimes one just don't deserve a second chance, condemned....

Sometimes when one thought is truth, it is actually lies, when one thought is lies, they're actually truth....

Once a liar, always a liar... Even it is truth, it would turn out to be lies bcuz it's from a liar's mouth...

A leopard would never change it spots, never be condoned...

Some pple's feelings are treated with respect and care, some's feelings just cannot be bothered with even if they're hurt umpteen times but swallowed in quietly...

No one's perfect, tat's the truth... But some imperfections just ain't enough to cover this sentence...

Turn over a new leaf is nvr a sentence for a liar...

Explaining is considered as hiding and giving excuses... Don't explain is considered as admitting that one's at fault when the truth lies in somewhere no one would bother revealing & uncovering....

In this world, who doesn't want to have the best positive image? When one's ugly side is revealed, everyone only focus on the bad and dark side but never the once good & Bright side...

' Once' this word is a very cruel word... I Once had few close best frens, i Once had the best life surrounded by loved ones,i was Once part of their lifes, I Once had the best of both worlds, i was Once happy... the only thing that would change is I was Once Hurt, this would come on over and over again... When one sentence starts off with' Once' it had a meaning tat it would never come again... and that's true in a way as it's all starting to reveal....

Once broken, there would be a crack, who would wants to live with a crack.... But Life always have a crack, only difference whether the crack is being disguised with best effort... Sometimes, not doing anything beats to doing something, when done there's a chance of ruining it and worsen it.... But by not doing and remains in silence, no one would ever know the outcome...

Slowly fading off...

我的难过是如此低调, 因为不想打扰,我的悲伤是如此低调, 傻子才会哭闹...

2009-07-06T21:57:00.005+08:00

"Sorry" seems to be the hardest word...

Yesterday, i was watching Channel 56, "超级星光大道5" this taiwanese singing competition program.. The theme of the competition last night was"我的主题歌 " songs that depicts the competitors' life stories.... Everything was well, for all the competitors, until this competitor came onto stage.... She's 徐永琳, one of the top singers in 5班, nice & powerful vocals... Before she starts her song, the host, 陶子 interview about her choice of song... She chose 林晓培's " 心动 ... The reason behind her choice of song is because she once possess a very great friendship... Three of them ( 1 ger and 1 boy) since primary school... However,due to they 3 all chose different secondary schools to go to, they drifted apart from each other and have never talked to one another for 5 years.. They left their friendship stagnant and chose their newly acquainted frens and new life...

Till the day, she managed to buck her courage and call her fren... She found out that the guy has met with a mishap... And all she can do is to keep him in her heart.... Tears run down my cheeks that moment... 2 persons came up to my mind, while the contestant was singing... tears stream down uncontrollably.... And when the judges console her... i realise that's quite true, it does not matter and not too late to do whatever you can to apologise... Even if the other party does not accept.... as long as you do your part even if it's silently and secretly.... I came across one song which i think the lyrics are quite meaningful, i would post it up later... I guess, for the 2 persons whom i have let down, i hope for their everyday to be happy and meaningful owaes....

心动 - 林晓培

有多久没见你

以为你在那里

原来就住在我的心底

陪伴着我的呼吸

有多远的距离

以为闻不到你的气息

谁知道你背影这么长

回头就看到你

过去让它过去来不及

从头喜欢你

白云缠绕着蓝天

如果不能够永远走在一起

也至少给我们怀念的勇气

拥抱的权利

让你明白我心动的痕迹

过去让它过去来不及

从头喜欢你

白云缠绕着蓝天

如果不能够永远都在一起

也至少给我们怀念的勇气

拥抱的权利

好让你明白我心动的痕迹

总是想再见你

还试着打探你的消息

原来你就住在我的身体

守护我的回忆

Anyway, here's some outdated updates.... Went to Sab's wedding last 2 sundays.. hahaha.... The wedding was nice, and i was so touched when i saw Sab.... So happy for her, and of course seeing Kai and Alvin... We've lost touch somehow... Nonetheless, we promised to organise a gathering of the Balarians soon.. Lol i came up with the word last min in my mind.. Keke... And few of the Teambuilding photos which i would like to put them up here... = ).... This company i worked for is really making me love yet hate at the same time.. Haiz... What to do.. I guess everywhere's the same but it not easy to find one company that provides you with the Love-Hate relationship.. Lol... But i'm glad i met a few good pple and frens here...

Called Ying this morning, heard from her that one of her polymates passed away during National Service.. And it happened that Guan knew him as well.. He's only 21, where i believe it's the beginning of One's adulthood... He missed it, even before he can savour life... Life's indeed fragile, unpredictable and never fair.... God Bless the young man.... Oh ya, i heard Love news from Bee Bee... Finally she changed her status.. SO happy & Glad for her... It's nice to see and hear your frens all found their the other half and living in blissfulness... Bee.. Jiayou.... !!! Yao XIng fu Oh.. =)))

低调 - 张栋梁

嬉笑打闹拥抱

留下了那么多开心合照

互相取暖依靠

熬过了最低潮

一起生活也一起埋怨过

走过最好与最糟

我在心里想的不用说明

你知道

晨昏日夜颠倒

这房子突然没从前热闹

散落一地微笑

没有人去打扫

感情很微妙

再多付出也好

再多关心都徒劳

爱从来就没有固定的轨道

它最后停在哪里谁知道

我的难过是如此低调

因为不想打扰

我在寂寞的墙角

努力的对自己好

你用微笑回报

朋友或情人不重要

我的悲伤是如此低调

傻子才会哭闹

就算你发现也好

我想你一定会选择

假装不知道

只怕我自己的掩饰不够好

晨昏日夜颠倒

这房子突然没从前热闹

散落一地微笑

没有人去打扫

感情很微妙

再多付出也好

再多关心都徒劳

爱从来就没有固定的轨道

它最后停在哪里谁知道

我的难过是如此低调

因为不想打扰

我在寂寞的墙角

努力的对自己好

你用微笑回报

朋友或情人不重要

我的悲伤是如此低调

傻子才会哭闹

就算你发现也好

我想你一定会选择

假装不知道

只怕我自己的掩饰不够好

难道是我对我自己不够好

I just wanna go on my life journey with my own strength & hands...

2009-06-27T22:59:00.004+08:00

Transformers - The Revenge of the Fallen

Oprimus Prime ( The Leader of Autobots)

Yay... I passed my Advance Theory on Friday, i can finally start to go for driving lessons and get myself ready for TP test... hehe.. So excited and happy... My boss and colleagues all bet that i would failed the test because i had 2 tries for the basic..lolx.... Hence, they start betting with each other, Haze & my boss take the bet that i would failed, and i take the bet that i would pass.. hehe..Actually wasn't very confident also when i took the test, i had 6 questions with absolutely no idea what the questions are asking about... lolx.. But then i switch in between mandarin and english then slowly go for the answers and check it through twice.. Lol.. Frankly speaking i don't wanna failed and waste money.. Hence, i tried my best and i did it... hahaha.. pat on my own shoulder...

After the test i went to Vivo and meet Ying and Bryan with my little sis, Lirong... And we caught Transformers - The Revenge of the Fallen.. Thanks to Ying's company and Ying's generosity for the Free tickets.. haha.... The movie was great and very very nice.. Funny at times too.. It does not disappoint me.... haha... I must say it's good... Thumbs up for Michael Bay and Steven Spielberg... Enjoyed the movie very much, though wasn't feeling very well, but i am glad that i went despite the feverish me...

Bumble Bee ( The guardian of Sam Witwicky)

Shia Labeouf as Sam Witwicky

Megan Fox as Mikaela Banes ( Sam's Gf) Isn't she a beauty and Hot.. woo... =Pp

Linkin Park - New Divide

I remembered black skies, the lightning all around me

I remembered each flash as time began to blur

Like a startling sign that fate had finally found me

And your voice was all I heard

Did I get what I deserve?

So give me reason to prove me wrong

To wash this memory clean

Let the thoughts cross the distance in your eyes

Give me reason to fill this up,

Connect the space between

Let it be enough to reach the truth realized

Across this new divide

There was nothing inside, the memories left abandoned

There was nowhere to hide, the ashes fell like snow

And the ground caved in between where we were standing

And your voice was all I heardDid I get what I deserve?

So give me reason to prove me wrong

To wash this memory clean

Let the thoughts cross the distance in your eyes

Across this new divideIn every loss in every lie,

In every truth that you deny

And each regret and each divide

Was some mistake too great to hide

And your voice was all I heard

Did I get what I deserve?

So give me reason to prove me wrong

To wash this memory clean

Let the thoughts cross the distance in your eyes

Give me reason to fill this up,

Connect the space between

Let it be enough to reach the truth realized

Across this New Divide

Been having fever the whole day, since Fri night and also the whole of today.. I hope i did not catch the H1N1 Flu... If not sure have to quarantine already... Because i am having all the symptons, flu, blocked nose, sore throat, fever, body aches, breathlessness.. OMG... Actually, i have been to the Doc on Wed already... i did dutifully take the medicine, however it doesn't really work.. i hope my fever wld subside by tml.. If not, really choy choy ganna the H1N1, i would have to miss Sab's wedding already... Actually, i am so envy of Ying they all, because they're having a beach gathering with her tomolo, and i cannot go cuz i have to go for the wedding.... But i really do hope that i could be there, even if she doesn't talk to me, i am contented just by seeing her, it's homecoming for her summer break.... Haiz, wasted...

But i'm happy to hear that she's back though... Well, enjoy the gathering tomolo.... Recently, there are some bad news for me and on me for work... but i guess i would have to take it in my stride... Afterall, the cards placed on the table are very clear already by the management... But i would endure, grit my teeth and move on till next year when the job market is better.. I would do my best and show them that even though they sacrificed me, i can endure and is capable of proving to them that i can do it... However, i am sad that i wouldn't be under my dearest boss anymore, she's the best boss in the whole world... But i can't be forever under her care and my own comfort zone too... Hence, i would take up the challenge and do her proud... That's the best i can do...

School's starting soon and i'm excited at the same time nervous... I wanna do well and graduate asap... Time is running out for me.. wahaha.. i wanna complete my master by the age of 30... This is my goal and i hope to work towards it.... wish me luck... Anyway, i have heard of Michael Jackson's death.. i wasn't very sure of his songs but definately one that i am very familiar with is " Heal the World" I think that's a great song of his.. Though his plastic surgery failed... but i guess his contribution to the world's pop music is unbeatable and uncomparable... Hence, my tribute to the late pop king, Michael Jackson.. Rest in Peace....

Alright, stopping here today... feeling drowsy, the med effect is here already.... goodnight & Sweet dreams.... =)

2009-06-20T23:33:00.009+08:00

花样男子 - Boys over Flowers 꽃보다 남자 (Kkot-bo-da Nam-ja)

THe Flower 4 ( F4)

F4 & Geum Jan-di (금잔디)

So envy of her surrounded by handsome & cute guys...

I have once again found my most recent new craze... Which is " Boys Over Flowers" ** Screamsssssss** They're so handsome... And i'm so So Sooo soOOoo in love with one of them which is : Kim Hyun-joong 김현중 As "Yoon Ji-hoo" (윤지후). Here's a picture of him in the drama... He's so charming isn't it... Though i do love the main character as well, but sorry i had to admit that i am so mesmerise by him... He's not only handsome, he sang quite well too, one of the drama song was sang by him... damn sad.... I simply just love him, couldn't control and get hold of myself... wahaha... He's just the ideal type of bf that i would dream of... Prince charming of mine.. hehe... It's alright to dream and fantasize right even though i'm reaching 25... Who cares when it comes to handsome and charming guys.. right.. keke... = PppppP

awwWwww...

So Cool..

Allow me to have a short introduction of this drama. The ‘Iconic Love Story’ for those who wish to stay young at heart forever!‘Boys over Flowers’ is the highly anticipated remake of the famous Japanese comic book series. Jan-di, the Heroine, is the poor but bright girl who has a strong sense of justice and full of vitality. She transfers to an exclusive high school where only the rich go. In there, she encounters with the four rich and quirky boys and experiences love and friendship.The storyline illustrates the supreme fantasy that a drama can bring out the most. Each of us probably has an experience of admiring or dreaming of something. The drama ‘Boys over Flowers’ is the concentration of the admirations. - ( Copied from the sypnosis, =P )

I've finished the whole drama already, and i must say it is and was better than the Taiwanese version.. The cast were also used better in terms of looks, and also the lavishness of the whole entire drama... I must say they really throw in big money to make this drama a success... I didn't know that korea have so many handsome guys.. wahaha... as the age of the actors are quite young i guess younger generations of Koreans have grown so high standard... although plastic surgery is very common and easily access to for koreans but i guess they're mostly all genuine ba.. wahaha.. maybe some flaws adjustment that's all?? lol... Anyway, not important for this...

Enjoy some of the photos i loved taken from the drama.... And i highly highly recommend you guys to go watch, damn nice... hahaha.... Enjoy.... =)

Prince Charming!!!!

Isn't they cute?? lolxx

She's so pretty.. i like her since her drama " Hao Jie Chun Xiang"

they made a cute couple isn't it..?? = )

Loved this pic most, so sweet...

Beautiful isn't it.. PS, abit tiny hor...keke

And of course the Happy Ending pose.. =))))

And yes, Happy Daddy's Day, Dad...!!! =) good nites peeps...

2009-06-10T20:39:00.006+08:00

I do not have the mood to blog... But since i put up a few emo songs, can't helped but felt emo.... Partly because of yesterday's dreams & some of the sentences someone mentioned to me...

It wasn't easy to climb up after falling... When you thought you have the support & encouragement from pple... It doesn't go the way you want sometimes, my boss talked to me during lunch on Monday where there's only the 2 of us... She confided in me her problems she's facing at home & work... It was so not easy for her, a woman to hold up and support a family of her own, paying everything by herself... She told me i need to be independent, so independent that i can't even depend on my mum.. Bcuz she said if i continue to rely, one day, just one day i was hit hard on reality,i would fall badly.. This had really prove the point of mine... I'm so used to relying on pple in the past... I had pple to rely on everytime.. which is why over-relying caused me to fall so badly when he left me...

So badly that i don't know who to live for but him... And my boss is a very strong woman.. She would cry and vent out her frustrations, at the same time she would hang on tight there... doing and moving on by herself... She had husband definately but she nvr rely on him at all... Because she believe a woman needs to be strong enough to handle everything on her own and not rely on anyone but herself.. At least when reality hits, she would still live and brave it on strongly..

I do feel sad by a few statements made by someone close to me... and when i heard it, i didn't showed my emotions out.. I've learnt to control my emotions better and to hide all sad ones in me.. Maybe i'm over sensitive or maybe i'm just not worth her giving a second thoughts when she said that to me.... maybe she's changed and matured.. But the sadness i felt is not something that i think she doesn't think for me or whatever... It's a feeling that cannot be describe easily through words...

I just wanna be myself, and in a way i want to be strong and tough enough to brave no matter what reality hit me.. I have been through some of the worst already, i want to be able to brave though any that comes along the way of my life journey...

I just wanna walk on with my own strength.. childish, yet able to handle any blow that comes along....And becomes strong be it appearance or soul yet not vulnerable inner... This is all i ask for...

寂寞光年

是谁从我天空摘走了星星

一转眼眉头聚满乌云

从来快乐悲伤都自己横行

忘了我也值得被关心

一双手一个梦

一路上不断的俯冲

痛到忘了要怎么喊痛

漫长的寂寞淹没我的难过

我的世界是零下的沙漠

其实我也想要拥抱的温柔

融化这颗坚强的泡沫

漫长的等候让人特别失落

锋锐寂寞把天空都割破

还有谁能够紧握着我的手

陪着我期待消失的彩虹

是谁将阳光都剪成了雨滴

天灰了快乐总有限期

从来都陷在孤独的流沙里

忘了我也配被人在意

一个人一直走看着梦像做了又空

精疲力尽有没有哪里可以停泊

漫长的寂寞淹没我的难过

我的世界是零下的沙漠

其实我也想有拥抱的温柔

融化这颗坚强的泡沫

漫长的等候让人特别失落

锋锐寂寞把天空都割破

还有谁能够紧握着我的手

陪着我期待消失的彩虹

那是谁的温柔留在我的小手

微不足道却那么重

漫长的寂寞把意志都吞没

整个世界是沉默的漩涡

有谁能陪我手牵着手出走

带我离开空洞的星球

还有什么值得追求

还有什么可以拥有

把怀抱借给我是不是就不再颤抖

有谁能带走这美丽的哀愁

能让我相信被爱的理由

2009-06-10T20:07:00.003+08:00

Nicey, Emo-y SongssSs...

惯性背叛 - 蔡依林

享受被爱的风光

嘘寒问暖稀松平常

你喝水你吃饭

你拥有的早已习惯

活在被爱的天堂

以为幸福都很像

被哄着入睡吻着起床

换一个人是否一样

惯性背叛还天真的希望我应该体谅

像孩子找着新玩伴

很快的受了伤

拼命回头却不敢让我看到你的慌

惯性背叛才发现你是如此害怕黑暗

原来什么都被锁上

我慢慢觉得凉

越接近夕阳影子越长

你在被爱的门窗

总是贪婪总是张望

人挤人的街上踩得尽是

伤心失望

你在被爱的围墙

那个温暖的手掌

以为的捆绑却是力量

陪你冷战陪你张狂

惯性背叛还天真的希望我应该体谅

像孩子找着新玩伴

很快的受了伤

拼命回头却不敢让我看到你的慌惯

性背叛才发现你是如此害怕黑暗

原来什么都被锁上

我慢慢觉得凉

越接近夕阳影子越长

南拳妈妈 - 下雨天

下雨天了怎么办

我好想你不敢打给你

我找不到原因

什么失眠的声音

变得好熟悉

沉默的场景

做你的代替

陪我等雨停

期待让人越来越沉溺

有谁和我一样

等不到他的谁

爱上你我总在学会

寂寞的滋味

一个人撑伞

一个人擦泪

一个人好累

怎样的雨怎样的夜

怎样的我能让你更想念

雨要多大天要多黑

才能够有你的体贴

其实没有我你分不清那些差別

接近还能多一些

别说你会难过

别说你想改变

被爱的人不用道歉

郭静 - 明白

你说了一万遍的你爱我

你说了什麽我都懂

因为爱很久

所以我都懂

可是我发现

没人能永久

就算我们曾勾勾手

还是会寂寞

没有你之後

我才明白的更多

你看着我来

我看着你走

生命有太多分分合合

难免要承受的痛

你看着我来我看着你走

就算捂住耳朵

我还能听见

你呼吸的温柔

就算我会心痛

你的好永远都填满我心中

2009-06-07T00:21:00.004+08:00

Cake-cutting Ceremony... =PpPp

Hehe... Mummy just completed her cake-cutting ceremony.. kekex.... But the pictures have an extra at the background la... that is the AP Li Yuan, feel like one leg kick her to Africa let her sleep with the animal in the wild.. She chu pattern, KNS... Luckily, got the support of Li Rong to sing Birthday song for mummy.. I can see mummy's eye gleamed with happiness la.. can tell she's quite touched when we sang the birthday song to her.. I guess it's the first time leh, past few years i only gave her an Angbao and bring her out to dinner.. Other times they celebrated for her and i'm not around.. This year meant something to her and me ba i guess.. hehe..

Alright, i promised earlier that i would take a picture with mummy alone... And i've done it wahaha... i make it a point that i would take with her more often... =)... Alright here's the pictures... i think mummy damn cute la when she made her wish.. bcuz she's a buddist hence she used the " bai bai" pattern and made her wish... keke.. That's my "Sha" Mummy.... keke...

My Lovely Mummy

Happy Us... & I think i look quite alike with mummy.. wahhaha

2009-06-06T19:07:00.008+08:00

Happy Birthday, Mummy Dearest!!~~~!!

My mummy went out happily for her favourite program of her current life.. Ge Tai... She loved it as much as what we used to do, idolising and chasing starss... however, for her its more of a kind of entertainment, something she really enjoyed doing... cuz no matter how far the ge tai is, she would used her determination to travel to every part of Singapore and chase it.. wahaha... And everytime she came back, even though it's already midnight, she can't help resisting telling us how good the hosts la, singers la are.... Omg... I have and can never understand her passion i guess... hahaha... But as long as she's loved it and enjoyed them, shouldn't have much opposition views ya... though sometimes i can't help but think that watching ge tai is her life and more important than Me or to say us!!! wahahaha.... *Jealous* lol....

She haven't cut birthday cake as yet, cuz not everyone is present at home.. got to wait till she come back before 12am and gave her a last min mini celebration.. Pressie i've already gave her last mth already... wahaha.. Kaisu i noe, but bo pian scared she too ma fan so have to let her see if she's like, if nt got to change for her... What to do, birthday ger is the biggest, needless to say, she's mummy Queen, though all her life she has never been Queen before... hahaa...

It's not nice to reveal my mummy's age here, as you all noe, 'Age is a woman's taboo & secret' wahahha.. i only can hint that she've lived through half a decade liao lah... wahaha... =PppPp and through my coming 25 yrs of life... My mummy have never left me alone b4, everywhere she goes, she brought me along.... I've been her "tuo you ping" for 25 years le.... All these years, i swear i have really see her using my heart... i tend to take it for granted that she's my mummy, it's her duty to take care of me... i guess most of us tend to take things for granted.. Only these recents years, then i realised that my mummy aged alot, mainly worrying for us, especially me... I used to complained and grudge that she don't love me at all ever since she had her new family.. But in the recent years, when all the things that had happened to me, that she had gone thru with me made me realised that.. In her heart, she ached when i cried, she cried when i'm not healthy or sad... she's upset when she see me pained... She felt pained when i was left alone... She walk through with me all the ups and downs, console me, supporting silently though sometimes it can be naggy.. wahaha...

But it's really not easy for her, stuck in between my step -dad and me... She's always been telling me that her tears, sorrows, pain are all hidden.. she swallowed it into her heart and never reveal or show it in front of us.. I must say and agree that my mummy is a very very strong & kind woman... It's really my fortune to have her as my mummy.... even most of my frens said so... My mummy is the strongest woman in my world... hahaha... same goes to granny... As time past, i am getting more and more afraid that one day she might leave me.... though i noe it's part and parcel of life.. but i hope that she would be able to see me to my older years, just like how she spent her years by granny's side.... She once told me that she had one very wish only that is to see all of us get married and have kids... But she also know that to wait till Gabriel the youngest to have grandson it's nt quite possible, but as along as she can live to see him get married she can go peacefully le..

I wasn't sure if i can fulfill her wish... but i would try my very best, though i kinda of wanna be a strong-willed, career woman on my own... hahaha... but let heaven decide for me then... I have never said I love her to her all my life... But in my heart, mummy i really really love you, as much as granny... And both of you are the most important person in my life whom i can never do without... The ordeals both of you gone through with me, besides my frens.. and my family support taught me, never never never ruin this everything i have possessed... I am and would work hard.... Mummy, WO AI Ni!!!!!!!....

Okie, enough of the emo emo thoughts wahaha... Now is the main point i am trying to put across... Finally finally, I've finished watching '败犬女王" wahaha... And the ending was good i must say, besides good it has also enlightened me much... so much so that i think i'm heading towards that direction.... "只要懂得爱自己，　一个人也可以活的快乐自在。。。。因为我学会了让自己幸福的能力！！！！" I look forward to the day, where i can lift my head high and said i am" 自信快乐的单身女子，　而不是被寂寞打败的败犬。。。。" lol.. i would make it de, i strongly believe... Because, 我现在才发现，　只要懂得享受生命中的美好我就能让时间为我静止。。。Hehehe... There are always other form of love besides Relationship...The other forms of love are also enough to support you thru the darkest nights you have and the lowest peak of your life.. I survived it once and i know and knew that i would survive it well... Alright, got to ciaos... Later going out for Li FUng Wan's bdae celebration at KTv, and tomorrow going Beach.. Yay~!~!~! Enjoying life to the fullest... We're going to the beach beach beach how abt u, u, u.. U can come too, too , too ,too we're going to the BEACH~!~!.. Hooray~~~!!! = )..

我会是一个自信快乐的单身女子，　而不是被寂寞打败的败犬。。。。！！！！加油！　林晓莉。。。哈哈!!!

P.S: I don't have any picture with mummy alone except on my 21st... But i would take one later and post it up here.. wahahha... =PpPP And a note to NG LI RONG & NG LI YUAN, NG SHI LING & NG JIAYU...... DON't ever bully Mummy again, if not i shall not spare any of you.. UNDERSTAND... The da jie's posture is OUT... wahaha...

A nice & meaningful song to share...

The Climb
Miley Cyrus

I can almost see it.

That dream I'm dreamin' but

There's a voice inside my head sayingyou'll never reach it.

Every step I'm taking.

Every move I make feels

Lost with no direction.

My faith is shakin.

But I, I gotta keep tryin.

Gotta keep my head held high.

There's always gonna be another mountain.

I'm always gonna wanna make it move.

Always gonna be an uphill battle

Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose.

Ain't about how fast I get there.

Ain't about what's waitin on the other side.

It's the climb.

The struggles I'm facing.

The chances I'm taking.

Sometimes might knock me down but

No I'm not breaking.

I may not know it

But these are the moments that

I'm gonna remember most, yeah.

Just gotta keep going.

And I, I gotta be strong.

Just keep pushing on 'cause,

There's always gonna be another mountain.

I'm always gonna wanna make it move.

Always gonna be an uphill battle

But Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose.

Ain't about how fast I get there.

Ain't about what's waitin on the other side.

It's the climb.

Yeah-yeah

There's always gonna be another mountain.

I'm always gonna wanna make it move.

Always gonna be an uphill battle

Sometimes you're gonna have to lose.

Ain't about how fast I get there.

Ain't about what's waitin on the other side.

It's the climb.Yeah-yeah-yea

Keep on moving,Keep climbing,Keep the faith,Baby.

It's all about,It's all about the climb.

Keep your faith,Keep your faith.Whoa, O Whoa.

2009-06-04T22:20:00.009+08:00

Good, beautiful MomentssSS...

Lazy for updates, but here's are some photos to share... i believe pictures say a thousand words, ya.. hehe... Beautiful moments being captured, though memories may fade but as long as we once possess it.. It'll be stored forever in our heartss... =)))

White Dog Cafe, our sumptous dinner

The Dinner Group

The Bdae Ger, Jiayi (Caroline)

Thank you Gers, for being my companion all these while..

The Whole SQS pple

P.S: Uncle Bin brought his Gf, Rain together.. hehe so happy for him

The great company

Kunhan - The star, =pPpPp

Randomness

Back dated Photos.. hehe.. DBL O anniversary....

The happy clubbers

A Happy, Tiny Me... lol

Nice songs to share.... or to say lyrics... keke...

Tank - 如果我变成回忆

累了交困里努力清醒着

也照惯例想你了

好怕一放心睡了

心跳在梦中不听话的就停止了

听着你心像往常还有热

越美丽越更勇敢的

我还能展示什么

如果我连自己的脉搏都难掌握

如果我变成回忆退出了这场生命

留下你坐挨哭泣

我冰冷身体拥抱不了你

想到我让深爱的你

仍还孤独旅行我会恨自己如此狠心

如果我变成回忆

终于没那么幸运

没机会白着头发满山牵着你

看晚霞落去

漫长时光总有一天你会伤心痊愈

若有人可以让他给你我不怪你

快乐什么时候会结束呢

哪一刻是最后一刻

想把你紧紧抱着

可知你是我生命中的最舍不得

如果我变成回忆退出了这场生命

留下你坐挨哭泣

我冰冷身体拥抱不了你

想到我让深爱的你

仍还孤独旅行我会恨自己如此狠心

如果我变成回忆终于没那么幸运

没机会白着头发满山牵着你看晚霞落去

漫长时光总有一天你会伤心痊愈

若有人可以让他给你

如果我变成回忆最怕我单独终极

顽固的烂在空气不整理心里每一寸空隙

原来依然爱我的你总哭

承受失去这样不公平

请你整理把我忘记

2009-05-28T22:43:00.006+08:00

命中注定我愛你

I have just woke up from my beauty sleep.. wahaha... Keep napping these few days, too tired i guess... As usual, work is driving me nuts, the stress does not seem to go down at all even though my MD been telling us to cope with "stress" wahaha.... I've gt to curb this napping habit which i develop the past 2 weeks.. cuz when sch starts, where can nap??? hahaha... Gt to re-adjust back asap...

After being crazily obsessed over "敗犬女王", i went to watch "命中注定我愛你"... It makes me brawl & cried my eyes out.... I simply just can't control my tears, omg... It's even better than 敗犬, which i didn't expect, but i must say this drama really is good... Besides, the touching part, motivation, life changes, it did touched on my wound which i had kept it under me for many years.... or to be exact 7 yrs ago... This drama really bring back my pain... It wasn't easy to put it down afterall it was part of me.... I still kept the photos to remind me nvr ever repeat that mistake ever again in my entire whole life...

Everyone has past, but to let go of the past and live the current and future bravely, it indeed needs and takes alot alot of courage... This is one path, which i have yet to really savour but on my way to realise... It takes a minute to think things thru and understand, but it takes forever if anyone chose to live in it... No one is saint is this whole world, only the choice to live as close to a saint or not... I've just read Bee's Blog about her unique friendship with Hongyi, this is something i was really envy of her... It's definately not easy to find a soulmate, someone that shares the same telepathy with you.. and it's very true no doubt we have knew each other so long there are just something that lacks between and it very happen that there's that someone, might not be ur BF/GF but He/She can be the one and only that understands u the best even more than urself... And Bee, treasure it infinitely... =) Go, Go Bee...

Alright, besides crazily watching dramas, i am also quite obsessed with Facebook's Resturant City.... wahaha.. I oso dunno just to pass some time i guess...keke.... Well, here's some pictures i have taken from Bee of the ABove & Beyond's Event... As i mentioned they're quite good... Enjoy...

ABOVE & BEYOND!!!~~~~

The 3 happy shuffler gers... chilling @ Shell Station, 7-11 ahaha.. If u notice, Bee's drinking VODKA LIME and me, EVIAN.. can you believe it?? wahaha.. =Pppp

Look how happy bee was? keke... With Germaine's Frens, and my flying kiss to Bee!! keke...We're 2 happy shufflers.... wahhaha...

It's FRIDAY~!~!~ Yeah!!!! hahaha... Sat, would be meeting up for Jiayi's Belated Bdae... See ya all.... Oh Not forgetting, HAPPY 13th Birthday to Ms DEVIL 2, Li Yuan..~~!!!! i should be the first one blogging de right??!! wahaha ...So envy of your age, wish i can turn back time and be 13 again... wahaha.... =PppP ( Dun luff la, Li Yuan, wahhaa)

P.S: A little emo thoughts, wahaha.... Tk care of urself over there, the number of H1N1 cases are on the rise.. Tk more vitamins & drink more water.. =)

2009-05-24T15:00:00.004+08:00

Moments~~~

Been busy this week, finally i'm officially a student once again!!!!! hehe... Everything has been finalised... tomorrow, i'm taking half day to make a trip down to school and settle everything... and i would be a happy student waiting for school to starts.. wahaha... Ying's oso starting school soon le, but we made it a point that we would still carry on our once weekly exercise day...

Wednesday, went up to gege's hse for dinner... Hua & gege's mother cook a sumptous dinner for us... Hua cook her specialty, garlic prawn and soup for us, as for aunty she cook delicious meat balls..... hehe... After that supposedly to go and watch movie ( Angels & Demons) with them, but after dinner i went home for a bath, Chris my gege's twin good enough to send me back on the way... But after bathing, the bed was soOoo tempting recalling me back to the it.. wahaha... Hence, i withdraw le, wasted $7 bucks... dot dot dot... haa..

Friday, Went for a Haircut @ Janzten after work hehe... But nobody can see the difference.. kaoz... haha.. cuz trim only mah... =PpPp went Dbl O and club... as it's their anniversary... i would say the clubbing was alright... Fun la, in a sense... Went with my colleagues and their frens...

Saturday, became a part time Santa Claus ahaha... Gave Bee, my mummy's home made Ba Zhang, and had my fav's Mee Hoon Kuey at NTI and Bee's very nice to drive and Make delivery to my boss's as well.... Then we went IMM and walk ard, bought 2 cardigans.... Sianed...so tempted to shop... Arghzxxx.. After that went steamboat with the usual HIC's group @ Bugis.. And rushed down to meet Bee @ zouk for ABOVE & BEYOND's event... It's fun overall, music was quite good, the only minus point, damn many pple.... Going zouk owaes seem to made me recall some of the nice memories which i once had and lost.. But i wasn't emo at all, just reminiscing... Though quite tired, but did managed to stay till the end.. haha.. luckily it ended at 3am.. The two out of three Djs were good, fun & friendly... haha... Had a great workout, shuffling but quite sad that Vin wasn't able to join us...

Ying's should reached Genting by now.. hehe, she on a trial honeymoon with Brian.. keke... Enjoy ur trip, Missy Ying... And as for Today, i need a good rest... club for 2 consecutive nights.. damn damn tired... breakout already... arghzz....

Alright ending here... hehe.. ciaozz... photos would upload when received... haha...

P.S: Happy belated Bdae, Jiayi!~!!! wished u 3 times le... got sincerity horz... wahaha... =Ppp

Msged you, but didn't hear reply.. No matter what, i just hope that u're happy and i would wait patiently for u to accept... ( Not expressing love to a Guy okie....)

2009-05-19T20:05:00.007+08:00

BirthdaySssSS Wishes....

Happy Belated Birthday Missy Lirong!!~~ i lazy to blog on the actual day, but celebrated with you liao right, so okie la horx.... haha.. Anyway 14 yrs old liao, must learn to treasure the time in sec sch... it pass in a twinkle the okie.. Wo shi guo lai ren, so i noe... I missed the old days like hell man... Especially when ur age is increasing... That's the painful part.. wahhaa... So heed my advice okie.. lolxx..

What have i been doing the whole week, hmm let me recall... Well, Tuesday as usual, exercise day with Ying & Bee.. Went to my Bossie's condo for swimming..well that Tuesday was a bit special and happening keke.. Jiayi join us for soaking water cum chit chat & laughing session... wahaha... It's the first time we kinda of swam together since sec sch's swimming lessons.. see what i mean??? Time flew past like rocket, dear me... We had a good laughing session cum planning for missy Jiayi's coming belated bdae celebration.. Whaha... After that met Uncle Vin with Bee & Ying, wah lao really hard to book him man... Kns, finally can see him liao after countless msn-ing.. wahaha...Met him for supper, SINFUL!!!!!

Received Letter of acceptance from PSB academy, I was accepted... YAy~~!! Gonna go back to the school, a step closer towards my dreams... I'm going to the school, school, school, How abt u, u, U, u can come too Too Too.. i'm going to the school..... hehe.. Although would be tiring, but the thought of graduation simply excites me.. Tat's for now, wait till sch starts.. hur hur hur.... Besides that, went dinner with my " Gossip gang" though short 2 person... Haiz.. It's kinda of sad when u see one of the members drift apart due to work matters... We really shld differentiate between work and frens... That no personal feelings, just purely about work when we get into disputes.. Y can't u see it this way? Haiz...

Thursday, Not feeling very well, went home to slp str after work, my sweet colleague sent me home wahaha... lol.. Friday, MC tio food poisoning ah... sian-ed whole thursday night, been up vomitting, running in and out of the loo... arghzz.. stupid Taman Jurong beside Sheng Song's Foodcourt.. Arghzzz.... Went to doc, and tat toopid vin called to dinner, den he dilly dally already can supper liao loh... Reason being,his GF, ALVA is out of town dat's y can meet us for supper... KNS... Went to Bukit Timah and meet Bee.. Chit Chat abt Vin's current prob he's facing with his parents and family... As wad Bee's said pity him, but believe if we can help we wld.. haha.. Touched hor, Vin... =pppPp...

Sat, woke up early in the morning to send Queen Mummy off to Batam.. Enjoy right she.. But she deserved to la.. ahaha... of cuz my pocket burn a big hole again la... Went to Orchard with the Step Dad & 2 May Bdae sisters to do up the loan thingy, wah lao damn ma fan and long... Kaoz... But nice of the step dad to help me la.. Though we didn't really tok, but thankful and grateful to him... Then had lunch together with him and he went to his appt, and we went KTV-ing.. wahhaa.. It's a bdae gift for the 2 little rascals.. wahaha.. Must start exposing them first, i rather i be the one to expose them then they expose with their frens, who noes wad wld happen... Hor Ms Li Yuan.. Wanted the best for them.. not so worried abt Li Rong.. But LI YUAN, I am WATCHING U.. wahahha..

Sang till almost 5, again same burn my pocket again, but ok la... Once in a yr nia... wahaha no more next time liao.. = ppppPp, then brought them to chose their cake and then off to Sushi Tei to have a sumptous dinner... Li Rong paid for it, wahaha.. No la, it's sponsored by the step dad.. keke... u think Li Rong so good meh??? keke... After Dinner Home sweet home... lol... Tiring leh... Supposed to go Beach Vball on Sun, but last min all fly so decided to stay home and accompany Lirong.. wahaha... Oso wanna rest la... Cut Cake ceremony wahaha.. I dun hab the fotos, then slack all the way till bed time... hehe..

Monday, Headache day, Migraine the whole day, xue te... Then drama day for 2 of my colleagues aiyo.. Then worse, reached home slp all the way till morn.. no time to revise Basic Theory.. Last min revision till 2pm before my another sweet colleague, Anthony drove me to BBDC... Wahaha.. All of them laugh at me tat i won't be able to make it... Cuz i crash course and last min.... BUT... I PASSED MY BASIC THEORY~~!!! Yay YAY YAY YAy... so OOOooo Happy... keke.. Den i str away go and apply for PDL.. Den ganna scold by Ying Ying, saying tat i shld pass my ADVANCED first.. kns.. waste my time and money.. aaargghhzzzz.... Stupid... But wad to do... Just bear with it loh, hopefully my advance can pass one time heng heng heng la... wahaha... And Yes, i FINALYY CAN LEARN DRIVING LE... YAY.... *chuckles*

Okie tat's all... Pls Pls let my loan be approved den i can go pay and await for SCHOOL... hehe.. So excited... Okay, This sat, going to steamboat with Baby they all den ABOVE & BEYOND with BEE @ ZOUK.... VIN GO LA.. wahaha... DUN FLY US KITE LA.. Lolxx and tml going to gege's hse for foodie session.. hehe... Hua Hua & Gege's mum cooking dinner for us... hehe.. Nan De right... lolxx... Dat's abt all for my activities this week... Next week celebrating Jiayi's Bdae on Sat... Happy Advance Bdae Jiayi... Stay happy, pretty owaes... All the best ah... lolxx... Huggsss.... ciaozz

To you... Hope u're feeling better, from ur blog can tell that u're leading quite a hectic life there... Hopefully you've been back to urself...Enjoy, study hard stay cheerful... All the best good luck... =)

P.S: Oh ya, some choc which Gao De ( Kevin, my colleague) bought for me all the way from Switzerland & Italy.. haha... For your pleasure viewing, the Kinder Bueno is unique ya? Haha.. Plus the 'Baci' choc, Baci means Many Kisses... keke.. They're both Nice yet SINFUL... Diet diet diet.. stop me pls.. wahaha...

2009-05-10T04:13:00.006+08:00

I can't get to sleep, hence decided to come online and blog... I was watching and chasing the latest taiwanese drama, "敗犬女王" after watching a few episodes, it set me thinking... Well, maybe i should keep my thoughts to myself for now and preview your about the story of the drama abit... haa..

敗犬，泛指已過適婚年齡但未婚的女性。故事，就從一個可怕的敗犬女王的可怕行為說起…..

單無雙，ifound雜誌社的編輯女王，單身，32歲又11個月。她一個人，獨自全力奔馳了快33年。不過，傳說中最靈的小小狐仙廟說，一個人的她，今年會有一顆詭異的桃花….
她熱愛工作，沈浸於工作，瘋狂工作，甚至，連大家歡心慶祝的耶誕夜裡，她都像個惡魔般地在猛挖內線新聞！！

在耶誕夜挖到超驚爆的新聞內幕後，單無雙為了即時把新聞送回雜誌社，還在路上大膽妄為的搶了一輛腳踏車，天啊！這台腳踏車可是「耶誕老人」的耶！！
搶到腳踏車的無雙，果然在最後的0.001秒把史上最猛的內線新聞送回雜誌社！
這件驚爆新聞不止讓雜誌社的人嚇到下巴都掉了，也讓所有員工在單無雙的淫威下，都在耶誕夜苦命加班啊～

而且，不止加班的員工不爽單無雙，腳踏車被搶的「耶誕老人」對她也很不爽！「耶誕老人」跟「女魔頭單無雙」為了腳踏車槓上了！
兩人交鋒數回後，耶誕老人的鬍子還被狠很的扯下來！原來，這滿臉白鬍子的耶誕老人是個年輕小伙子！而且他好帥啊….

這個年輕的「耶誕小帥哥」，會不會和「女魔頭單無雙」擦出跨越八歲鴻溝的愛情火花呢？而且，在只有工作沒有人陪伴的耶誕夜裡，其實，單無雙很孤單…
單無雙的孤單，「耶誕小帥哥」會懂嗎？還是「耶誕小帥哥」就是她結束32年孤單歲月的詭異桃花呢？

而在工作上，單無雙挖了不該挖的驚爆新聞，這會不會帶來什麼恐怖的後果呢？
看來，單無雙面臨了人生的兩大挑戰，一是開始體會人生接近33歲的單身壓力，二是工作上的危機跟挑戰接踵而來！
但有什麼好怕的！我單無雙不是敗犬，是女王！！….

Hehe, hope the chinese wordings would not pose any problems... haha... don't curse and swear and me k, cuz i'm quite slpy le so lazy to elaborate in English.. hehe...Government is promoting 'Speaks mandarin & Learn Chinese campaign ma... haha..=PPppp

I would only say i gave 3 thumbs up for the show... haha.. It's really nice, funny, touching, realistic in some areas... Ok, my 2 cents worth of opinons and thoughts wahaha... somehow i had a feeling that most probably i would ended up like the main lead, 單無雙... She's still carries, harbour hopes, dreams, wishes about Love... So do i, though maybe for now i'm only 25, but time flies, and in a wink 10 yrs would pass just like this... " i believe every woman hopes, yearns, wishes, desires someone she could lean on and belong to..." It is not hard for most people, but somehow it's the opposite for me.. i have no complaints about it, and i foresee myself in the near future to be as i mentioned, Ms Shan.. only difference, my Name is Gernice Lim Seow Li... wahaha... * Lame, i know* haa..

Probably the only difference is that she's waiting for the guy that left and disappear on her 6 yrs ago, which i am not for now.. I myself cannot provide a very definate answer... But the age difference between the guy and her is 8 years gap.... Wah, the hurdle is really huge not easy to cross over, somehow to me, 1 yr difference already scares me already... not to say 8 yrs, but Love and fate this thingy is just too profound and tricky... In the drama, Ms Shan always mentioned that " Love is Blind" Wow, really true... hahaha... There is no explanatory given why a person would fall for the other person..

Anyway, the best part is " Ethan Ruan Jing Tian (阮經天)" is damn damn handsome la... wahaha... Ever since i saw him in "Ming Zhong zhu ding wo ai ni" Wah lao, cannot resist him.. so cute, so handsome!!!!!!! wahaha... But his acting is really quite good i must say.. probably cuz he's handsome... that's how superficial humans are.. keke...

Well, enough of crapss... I highly recommend this drama, go and watch it... And ya, One last thing, Happy Mummy's Day, Mummy...!!!! I LOVE YOU, WO AI NI...~~~ wahahahaz... I never really say it out to my mummy ever... But i noes how unconditionally she's been my side, seeing me through all my ups and downs.... I can never ever repay her for what's she had done for me....

However, there's something bothering me deep down about what she said at the dining table, i was casual chatting with her about her birthday this coming June... i told her i was thinking of doing up a party to celebrate her birthday, she's resistant about revealing her age... I can understand that age's a confidentiality for us Women, but what worries me is that she mentioned that she don't ever know if she can gets to see us all getting married, having grandchildren... Suddenly, it scares me when i heard of it... She said every one eventually had to die.. this i totally understand and agree, but its whether when that someone dies, does he/ she gets to fulfil their wishes?? She said she's not greedy, having seeing us married well will do... cannot get to see grandchildren is alright... cuz she knows that it would be too long already... perhaps she would have to live till 100 years...

Though i laugh upon hearing this, but in my heart i'm not at ease..I'm afraid of the feeling of loss... I had lost enough, at least for the near future, i do not wish to experience loss of my dear ones, can i??? Just 20 years, even i had to exchange my happiness for it, i would... iI noe i think too much already... Time to sleep... Well, it's early in the morning already.. Good MOrning & nitey... *Yawnz* I'm tired... ciaoz...

2009-05-06T22:56:00.002+08:00

Little Blissfulness makes life happier

Nothing can describe my feelings when i saw the gigantic dessert being served to us... And when it reached and being put down at our table, my eyes open so wide that it might drop out.. That's exactly the same reaction which Ying and Hua displayed on their faces as well...

The story goes this way, Ying, Hua & i decided to meet for a mini chill out session at jp.. While waiting for them, hence i decided to do a little grocery shopping @ NTUC EXTRA... Shop until half way, they arrived le.. and dodo Ying also bought some staffs for her breakfast.. keke...

ANd we proceed to the Sakae Sushi beside the Frontier Community Centre.... Over the dinner, we chatted and update of the recent affairs that happened to some individuals... And of cuz couselling session to Ying.. wahaha. ( Hope you would think it through and make the right decision, whatever decision you make, we would stand by you.. =) ) No fotos for the sakae Sushi Dinner as it's normal stuffs... hehe.. Then we proceed to the library for Ying to borrow chinese love novels, my god she's a big fan of it... Then I made the Wrong-est decision of my life which i instantly regret when i saw the dessert being served to us....

I suggested to eat dessert at BENTEN Cafe... They do serve great dessert as i ate before once... But it's an ultimatum normal serving size dessert sundae... Worse still, we ordered the most gigantic dessert of our entire lifes... wahaha.. It's really huge and it costs us a whopping $46 bucks... OH MY GOODNESS.... The most expensive pricing i've ever paid for a dessert only... Grrrr.... Enclosed are the pictures of evidence.. the three of us luff like hell, and decided to take a momento photo together with the gigantic dessert... It's really an eye opener man...

Obviously, we can't finished it, and really overloaded with fruits and ice cream and CORN FLAKES... diaoz... wahaha... The dessert is abit weird in the combi and choice of fruits... There are cakes, wafer, cornflakes, choc & vanilla ice cream, kiwi, strawberries, bananas, Honeydew, pudding, oranges & Blueberries.... Diao weird combi isn't it...

I swear we all had a hard time trying out best to clear it... And after dessert, to reduce my guilt for a tweeny weeny bit, we went to the arcade and play DDR wahahah... missed the times man, it's good to go back to our childhood sometimes.. I'm not totally grown up despite my age.. wahaha.. had a gd sweat... hehe... FunnnnNNnn...

It's really nice to just have this kind of mini gathering, although if there are more to join us, it would be more fun... Missed the time when the 6 of us gather together and chit chat, kill time... But don't noe if there would be a chance again... I sincerely do hope so....

Hope you're good and well over there... Tk gd care, study hard, enjoy and don't think it on anymore... Let it be gone with the wind & start afresh.... =) I don't know if you wld be comfortable me mentioning your name, hence i won't want to put unwanted pressure on you, if you can't do it, i'm fine with it.. as long as you're happy.. =)

Alright, ciaoz.. cheerios.. Sweet dreamss....

2009-05-05T22:26:00.005+08:00

Reminiscences

Just finished swimming with Ying... hehe... We swam 30 laps ( thru & fro) my goodness... We were like in the water for 2 1/2 hrs... my god... Skin all wrinkled liaoz.. wahaha.. Jiayi's supposed to join us, but she can't make it.. and i'm supposed to run with her after swimming but i forgot to bring my gear as i rushed out of the house this morning... lolxxx

Had lots of laughter & chit chat with Ying.. It's been ages, since we tok like this, and i noe Ying's been feeling rather troubled & unhappy.. Somehow stuck in the rut, unable to come out... It's sad to see her this way, hopefully my little stories can made her laugh...

Tomorrow's we're meeting Hua to chit chat and have dinner @ Jp... hehe.... hopefully able to let Ying voice out... She said she missed Huiyee, and i'm sure Yee missed all of them here too..... One question which Ying asked, made me stop and think... If one day, Just IF He came back and request to start everything anew would i?? I paused before answering with a "No", but i would love to be frens with him, cuz he's a nice fren... I did ponder on this question before, but i realised after hurting him and of cuz him hurting me, i realise being frens are so much better... Just like me & Hanwen & Jiliang... It's so much comfy than to really put yourself through so much and yet with many uncertainties...

And if i saw him on the streets, no matter he's with who i would definately walk up and say Hi to him... This is my final answer, bcuz this question has been in my mind for quite long le... i used to dread going out and bumping into him... but after Koon's wedding last year.. i realise i can do it... Though at that time i didn't go up to him.. Hee...

The old times are really great, missed them greatly too... but that would become part of me, in my mind remembering the good times... i realise if i think about the happy stuffs and not the sad part.. Life is happier and simpler.. I gets to smile and laugh more too, that's something last time i am unable to achieve or to say savour it... I'm glad it's not too late to savour now.. =))

Oh Ya, i'm damn happy today also, my sweet sweet boss bought me labour day's gift.. Last year i received perfume.. Den this year she bought me a Taiwanese designer T-Shirts.. keke... My Boss is really good, i'm kinda of glad that i'm under her.. And now i have more stuffs to do... More reports to submit, more responsibilities... And i don't regret the choice of not leaving.. =)).. Enjoy the Pic, Damn Cute right.. wahaha... =PppPp

Wishing for Friday to come faster.. Hee hee.. *evil GrinssSss* Alright, goodnite all...

2009-05-03T15:46:00.003+08:00

Exploding emotional unstability...

Words really cannot express how glad, grateful and joyful i felt past midnight.. It is a phone call and a msg which i thought in my entire life span i would nvr get to receive or hear anymore... i really cannot describe myself at the moment..

Words that i never said it out 2 yrs ago, due to me breaching the trust i once had... even it's the truth, no one would believe, which is why i chose to remain silent... And thanks to "him" though he's part of the reason i lost her, he's also the one that publish the whole truth...

I don't hope for anything, even being blamed by him thru sms... it doesn't matter to me at all... What matters is she alright and that she's happy.. this matters to me more than anything else...

The emotions till now still haven't really settle in my heart... i still can't really get over it... No matter what, all that matters is you are happy.... everything else need not matters.. Call back to Sing, whenever you're down... Ying they all would always stands by you... as for me, i would owaes too, silently behind... no matter wad...

2009-05-01T22:22:00.002+08:00

可不可以爱我-卢学叡

为什麽如此的安静

为什麽明明想靠近

却还在迟疑

努力的我保持镇定

努力开拓话题

最後却溃不成军

为什麽如此的美丽

深刻的烙在心里

最温柔的酷刑

每一天无法不想你

连闭上眼睛怎麽都是你

你可不可以爱我

可不可以想我

虽然我对自己没有一点的把握

别害怕我难过

告诉我你真实的感受

至少忐忑已告一段落

你可不可以爱我

可不可以看我

反正看或不看我依然失魂落魄

成全不是美德拒绝也不是一种罪过

你能给我快乐还是寂寞

为什麽如此的美丽深刻的烙在心里

最温柔的酷刑每一天无法不想你

连闭上眼睛怎麽都是你

你可不可以爱我可不可以想我

虽然我对自己没有一点的把握

别害怕我难过告诉我你真实的感受

至少忐忑已告一段落

你可不可以爱我可不可以看我

反正看或不看我依然失魂落魄

成全不是美德拒绝也不是一种罪过

你能给我快乐还是寂寞

想念燃烧个不停

我快置身灰烬

你是我的呼吸

你可不可以爱我可不可以想我

虽然我对自己没有一点的把握

别害怕我难过告诉我你真实的感受

至少忐忑已告一段落

你可不可以爱我可不可以看我

我依然失魂落魄成全不是美德

拒绝也不是一种罪过

你能给我能给我什麽快乐还是寂寞

2009-05-01T20:34:00.004+08:00

Little Knick Knacks of Life....

Life has been more or less a routine for me nowadays... Besides the Weekly Tuesday exercise meet up with Ying & Bee, there's also the bi-weekly Beach Vball session which i am most excited about.. lolxx... I went for part-timing with Starhub @ Westmall with Bee last Sat, it was a very casual job and most imptly get to see " SpongeBob Square Pants" it's an event launch, i even get to see the COO of Starhub, wahaha.. that's an honoured event.. Bin was nice he came down and had a short dinner with me... lolxx.. We had Burger King... keke...

And on Sunday, we went to Beach once again... hehe... There's a little hoo-haa happened when we were on our way in to Sentosa... Bee's car got a Big COCKROACH.... oh mine.. it scared the hell out of me and made me cried due to fear... oh my god... This is terrible, i'm famous for timid and phobatic for COCKROACHES yet this happened.... arghzzz.... Worse of all " He" saw me cried... humpzz... super duper Paiseh... But i know it's impossible between us de, just happen that he fits my criteria of perfect guy...

Had nightmare on that Sunday night of cockroaches... What the hell... Monday went KTV with 4 of my colleagues to K-Box Clementi... The 2 guys with us sang very well, oh my oh my.. fell in love with their voice.. wahaha... Pre-celebrated Kevin's bdae for him before he fly off to Europe for his retreat... Envy him so much.. wahaha.. Photos still with "Aunty" Cynthia wahaha.. she refuses to send me kns... When i get my hands on the photos, i would upload them.. hehe... This week is very very long weekend for me, i am off since Thursday due to PH-in-Lieu, our MD's the funniest guy on earth, repay us leave for Vesak Day's PH-in-lieu to be of yesterday.... And today is Labour Day.. Happy Labour Day!!!!~~~~ to all fellow workers.. keke... And it's also Ying Qing's bdae.. Happy Birthday, Qing~~~!!! Smsed her this morning.... Hope she enjoyed herself today... =) One very good news... Yeah... Hua is not going to leave for Canada for another 6 months due to the Swine Flu.... That's Great news to me, though i feel sad for the poor victims of Swine Flu, and also thanks to the Swine Flu that i get to see my best fren for another 6 mths or so???? hehe...

Today besides the good news of Hua's postponed trip, i and him smsed today for the first time.. Yay.... hahaha.... Although in the end he didn't reply, but it's contented to me at least we smsed... I feel like going back to being a small ger in love lydat.. wahaha... Though sure that nothing would comes out of it.. i still felt happy over it... maybe this is simplicity contentment.... And i didn't put in any hope, so there won't be disappointment, which is good... i am no longer young to be able to play those ai-mei games already... =)

Mother's Day is coming... i dunno where to bring my mummy and granny... it's so Shang Nao Jing Ah.. haha... I was thinking how about i whip up a few dishes for them to savour, but i dun like to go market lehx.. how ah..hahaha... sianx.... Smelly la wet market.... keke....

It's May 1st, officially i declare, i must Jian Fei with utmost determination... No more snacking.. only eat three meals and watch wad i eat carefully... No more time liao... I wanna go for a makeover on my Bdae... as a gift for myself... to see how much i have aged over the last 7 yrs... since my last makeover is on my 18th bdae... hahaha... I will stick to it de... No more excuses le... hehe... Starting tomorrow onwards..... Give me support k.. Jia you Jia You Jia you... =PpppPpp

Well well, i am going to use the nexxt 2 days to pack my room, revamp it once again.. Time to clear out all the rubbish once again.. wahaha... more or less it'll look the same but with lesser things.. hehe...

Alrighty folks.. enjoy the long weekend, have fun and have a gd rest... the next holiday is Aug le..keke... Stay Happy owaes... tataz... ciaoz...

2009-04-18T16:02:00.005+08:00

礼物

女人都渴望归属

可是热情怎样保持温度

眼泪是快乐的附属

却又让我驯服

终於一天看清楚

能够爱过痛过也算幸福

这一路的旅途

风光明媚还是绝路

都是昨天笑忘书

每个人都有一份礼物

就是为另外一个人付出

没经历过挥之不去的痛苦

不懂珍惜手中的礼物

每个熟悉的哀乐喜怒

藏在心里最温暖的深处

王子公主谁能逃得过痛苦

能够勇敢爱下去是最好的礼物
>

终於一天看清楚

能够爱过痛过也算幸福

这一路的旅途

风光明媚还是绝路

都是昨天笑忘书

每个人都有一份礼

就是为另外一个人付出

没经历过挥之不去的痛苦

不懂珍惜手中的礼物

每个熟悉的哀乐喜怒

藏在心里最温暖的深处

王子公主谁能逃得过痛苦

能够勇敢爱下去是最好的礼物

今天我已经领悟

今天就是礼物就是为另外一个人付出

没经历过挥之不去的痛苦

不懂珍惜手中的礼物

每个熟悉的哀乐喜怒

藏在心里最温暖的深处

王子公主谁能逃得过痛苦

能够勇敢爱下去是最好的礼物

今天我已经领悟

今天就是礼物

错过

以为只看小说

就能看到爱的颜色

这算是什么生活

我们留在自己的沙漠

开始魂不守舍

等待时间流过>

如果你像天气

总对我不冷也不热

我不能选择沉默

爱情只是个泡沫

脆弱的一戳即破

你要好好把握

错过我们都有过错

在幸福的角落

还要再奢求什麽

直到一天

遗憾开出它的花朵

谁都会明白

从前才是最快乐

错过上天都有过错

创造悲欢离合

要我们承担结果

每一个人是另一个人的景色

在寂寞的时候

什么比爱更赤裸裸

在寂寞的时候

什么比爱更赤裸裸

在寂寞的时候

什么比爱更赤裸裸

This 2 songs are by Gigi Leung's latest album... i fell in love with the lyrics cuz i felt that it is really true.. hope you all would like it too... Go and listen ba.... Besides the 2 above there is another one by Ah-Lin, i would also like to introduce, 难得 .. The lyrics are very nice as well, you all know i love emo songs.. hehe... enjoy... ciaozz

难得

我还记得我挽着你的手

天冷时候一起躲在棉被中

那时我们不害怕犯错

那时以为天空多辽阔

朋友都说你後来变真多

总是避谈纯真坦白那时候

体贴的人不再追问我

只说你也有梦他也有梦

虽然难得不必心痛

我以为我成熟以为从此就自由

我尝试着快乐快乐却不陪着我

爱没有回来了你已经离开我

回忆紧紧缠着我像当初不肯放手

我以为我成熟以为我能好好过

我尝试着堕落当我想你的时候

爱不会回来了你已经离开我

却一直住在我心中

如果傻傻的承诺

现在还在一起吗

情侣龃龉常常有

如果寂寞的时候

已经学会去推托

他也有梦我也有梦

这样的爱实在难得

2009-04-18T14:39:00.012+08:00

Moving On??!!

Hola~~ Back again and ranting on.. lolxx.... Last week was Good Friday, PH and i definately had a crazy weekend without much rest.... Last Thursday, caught Fast & Furious 4 with Cynthia and her frens.. Woo, Vin Diesel & Paul Walker was damn handsome & Suave.. hehe.. love them... Hearing the hip hop & R & B songs make me wanna dance & have a sudden craving for Butter Factory.... keke...

this Car is damn Chiozz....

Fast & Furious 4

Vin Diesel & Paul Walker.. WHeexxxxx * Screamsss* lolx...

Good Friday itself is a busy full day for me... i woke up at almost 8am to get ready and went to pray my Brother for "Qing Ming" @ Mandai.... The step-dad drove my mum & i there, tok alot to my beloved demised brother in my mind... Missed him alot, realised how times flew past... it's been 11 yrs since he left us.... Reached home 12plus, bath & rush out to meet Bin, Bee & Ke Bin @Bugis for KTV... No pics for the day cuz no camera... lolss.. But had lotsa of fun singing..... Had Steamboat dinner with Bee & Kebin @ La Mei Zi.... We had 3 different soup base each, lol this is the funny & oso our first time... Chicken soup for me, Tom Yam for Bee & Hero Ke bin took Ma La ( xiao La) oso make his lips swollen le... lolx... But he said it's super shiok la, well believed him man... lolxx...

Talked about everything under the sun... left for dessert @ Ji de Chi and Ke bin treat us for that.. haa... Then proceed to walk around Bugis, went into this new shopping mall beside bugis Village.... Very big, gave the impression of The Cathay, oh i heard that watch movie @ the new cineplex is only$6 all day... i guess for a short promotion period only, not sure for that.... Nothing much in it yet, probably due to we went in quite late... And then we all proceed to St James, Mono to celebrate Kai Qing's bdae.....Singing again, and it definately proves that i can't be a singer cuz i lost my voice at the end of the night... This year was quite a gathering it would be better if Shu Fen & Jia Hui were with us, hehe... With Kun han & Ching Guan in the house.. Guan's mad at us cuz we all didn't msg him. keke.... But it was fun la, Bee's Fren Junxiong, Eng Chuan & gang were at Boilers....i didnt join them as i am with Huishan they all.. Qing's as usual drunk & all her vulgar came out in sentence... lolx.. had a reallly fun night with them... Bee run around both places.. lol.. We were damn tired, but overall was good, Bee couldn't wait till we end and i felt bad cuz she ended up going home alone... SOrry Bee.... Forgive me...

Despite the tiredness, but i am glad i went.... Cuz Shan's getting married next year's Jan... Very very happy for her... she's the 2nd to get hitched after Shu Fen.. =) It's always nice to hear and see your frens moving towards a new phrase of life... hehe... some pictures for you to see... =)) Also, it's been so long since i last saw Kunhan, missed him so much when i saw him that night... I realise that, everyone's grew up and had their own lifes... Missed the old days terribly much...

In one Room.. lolxx

Toast & Cheers to our Friendship.. 84 batch..

SQS Vballerss

Shuqunians happy family....

May this scene lasts...

Saturday, i slept till late noon.. Went Movie with Hua... She treated me lol, cuz she won mahjong...keke... We watched Shinjuku's Incident by Jackie Chan, hua said that she wanna watched a show with a blast to get the value for money... lolx.... It was nice, it's the first time i saw Jackie Chan die during the last scene & he's the bad cum good guy... haha..... I had watched his movies since i was like 10 yrs old? over the 15 years, i only watched him being the good guy & the hero that saves the day.. this is the first time i saw him being beaten up, keke... It's totally new & refreshing... Thumbs up for Jackie Chan, i can say it is really a commerating movie of his life.... Besides that i must say that the whole plot was awesome.. Especially the scene of Daniel Wu's hand being cut off with a spade in the " Gao La" wok.. Omg, powerful sia that scene....hehe..

After that went Butter Factory with Kun Han, Guan together with Cynthia & frens to satisfy my cravings for Butter Factory... It had moved house already from clarke Quay to One Fullerton... Had 2 sides this time, much bigger.. One side called Bump ( R & B Hip hop) another side called Fash ( Electro music). The designs were good and artistically creative, and dramas alot.. lol got a guy being smashed by btl on his head being escot out by lotsa of security guard and blood dripping everywhere.. even guan's shirt is being tainted, lol.. so heng right guan.. keke... Then another drama scene, 2 frens , i gana slap crying & making a scene and din outside the toilet... Best part, chiong into my toilet hard and fast once i opened my door & slam it on my back, 2 seconds slower that's it i am gone.. lol.... Really piece of shit... Arghzz.... felt like the music wasn't good enough... dunno is the DJ not good enough or i just wasn't really in the mood haha.. guess that's it ba...

Went home ard 3 plus.. slept at 5 woke up at 8.30am for beach vball... It was damn fun dat day, too bad no camera... hehe... Found out that one of them is actually my perfect guy criteria... but too bad younger and also he won't be interested in me this old maid de... lolxx.... the weather was great... loved it though i still become tan afterwards... dot dot.. the sun block isn't really good enough.. arghzzz... Had Dinner with Junxiong, Frank ( Jx's Fren), Hua, Ying & Bee at Suntec's foodcourt, went to look for Hua as she wanna pass me things.. hehe thanks to Bee Bee, she brought us there... another reason is bcuz of a secret share among us.. keke.. After dinner, bought egg tarts & chit chat awhile, den we proceed home... Tired...

Past one week, Lost my beautiful voice, lolzz *puiz* had sore throat throughout till now not yet fully recover.. i need Herbal Tea, any kind soul..?? lolzz ...heard some good and bad news from Bala... Ray & Cyn broke up le, haiz.... Love this thing really is very complicated and heartbreaking,but well fate doesn't allows hence no choice... Glad that Sabrina's & Ivan is getting hitched... and best part i am invited to their wedding.... gonna slim down more by June no matter how... work hard... hehe.. And oso Roy's proposal is sucessful.. He's getting married haha so happy for him, once he lost hope in love, and now finally found his true love... yeah... that's about all....

Having a dilemma at this moment, dunnoe to move on or not... Was being intro a job by Jes, and the pay and everything's quite attractive... But i had second thoughts about it, partly because my current boss treats me very well, din really want to move on.. but the pay's not paying very well.... i have talked abt it with my close frens, they all encouraged me to go for the interview and take up the offer if i am selected.... Cuz it's not too good to be in a comfort zone too long, oso it's for my own good and i get to learn new and more things....

I have accepted the interview, everything will only be finalise after Monday.... Moving forward for my own benefits or should i stay for my boss to help her... Relationships VS Money... Which one should i go for, i realise i am still very emotional when comes to making this kind of decisions.... Shall take things one step at a time... Last night went gege's hse play a round of mahjong, shit lost 24 bucks.. going to get scolding from Ying again... i should had slp through and not wake up... then won't lose money.. Arghzz..

Yeah.. tml going to tour Sentosa cum Picnic with Hua, Hanwen, Gege & Bao gege... Ying's on pending status.. she's seems troubled, unhappy & feeling down, but guess she's not ready to let me noe as yet.. More or less i guess it revolves around the same topic... Ying, Be happy ya, i wld support u no matter wad...

Alright, gotta go... it's been a very very long entry.. even i am tired already... lolx.... Byess.. tk care all.. signing off..

2009-04-04T18:25:00.010+08:00

Randomness of recent affairsSsss~~

We have just held a mini belated celebration for the Mar babies, Qibin & Nihui @ Lot One... Haa, gave them a small pressie of our gesture hope they both like the pressie and would remind of us when they use the pressie... But we definately not encouraging u both to light up more okiesss... =PppPP

Chat, laugh alot and reminacing of the old times were indeed memorable and fun... It really remind us of the good old times.... Met 2 so-called special appearance Shuqunites.. lol.. Met Huizi & Quan Feng, but only wave of hi & bye... Then they quickly proceed on to wherever they wanna go to.... hehe

Besides that, went Beach last weekend oso, supposedly to be only 4 of us, but we met some Shuqunites again.. hahaha.. Ying's & Bee's mutual frens, chuan huat, yong jian & Zhuang hao they all.. hehe... ended up become a very fun outing, thanks to Yong Jian.. And i played until i sprained my knee & toe.. hehe... Lousy me.. lol.... I couldn't help but admit i am really old liao.. Sian.. No!! No !! No !! i wanna be forever Young.. lol... * Self-Denial*

Other than that, celebrated Jess's Belated Bdae together with Shujun @ Alps Cafe... The place was quite cosy, the food soso only... hahaha.. Supposedly to have 12 Degrees dining experience but we didnt feel it.. lol.. have a crazy night with Boozes & games... hehe...

Also, took full day leave together with Ying and we went singing @ Clementi Kbox... Hehe... have lots of fun singing but definately not enough... we need more... hahaha.. but i'm super broke...

Finally watch movie with Hua again... hehe, we watched Mall Cop ~ Paul Blaut... it was funny, comical and definately encouraging.... Go catch it for a good laugh too ya... hehe.. thumbs up...

Recently I am deeply in love with this new Taiwanese Drama... Very touching, though there is China Actress, but i think she's pretty.. And Yan Cheng Xu, Jerry is super handsome... His acting improves alot... Also, partly because i fell in love with the song too... It is super touching.... Go watch too.. highly recommendable.. hehe... Here's the lyrics for you... I love the song and lyrics.. u noe me, owaes affected by Emo songs... hehe..

我只是想要幸福 - 苏永康

因为世界有个你

给我呼吸的勇气

就算泪光模糊了一切

在我心中依然美丽

生命最美的奇迹

原来就是与你相遇

是你握住我手心

去面对风和雨

把结局交给上帝决定

我只是想要幸福

用一生努力追逐

让星光带路

不管多无助

每一步都铭心刻骨

我只是想要幸福

为了爱不怕豪赌

我不会认输

我不愿让步

守在你身边再多苦

我都已满足

生命最美的奇迹

原来就是与你相遇

是你握住我手心

去面对风和雨

把结局交给上帝决定

我只是想要幸福

用一生努力追逐让星光带路

不管多无助

每一步都铭心刻骨

2009-04-04T17:45:00.004+08:00

ThoughtsSss~~

My Blog has become a space for me to vent out my emotions.. There are certain things i have no wish to rake it up to anyone's face.. not even to mention telling them how i actually feels... I am definately happy for my frens whom have found their other or achieved certain goals or dreams of their life... However, it is somehow in me that i couldn't persuade myself to go over the hurdle to the other path.. It is still affecting me as much as i am trying to walk out of it..

All these while, i am spending lots of time with pple whom i loved.... going out with them made me so happy yet somehow awkward in another way.. Taking the belated celebration for Nihui & Qibin... i couldn't stop myself from feeling tat there is certainly awkwardness between me and Nihui... and this is the truth, somehow things did happened... and i am already very contented that she's forgiving enough to still see me... i didn't thought that i would still have the chance.. therefore i cherished it more than ever...

Last night, i just dreamt of him once again... all these while, ever since Yee left the country for her studies, the scenarios in my dreams is always the same.... it's been the revolving around the same topic & pple.... And my dreams just keep repeating itself all over again... sometimes i am really afraid of sleeping... not running away from reality, but dreaming of it, really just reminds me of all the pains which i am trying very hard to escape from.... I do not wish to keep going through experiencing the pain all over again and again...

But what else can i do to stop the dreams from coming back.. somehow it made me believe one phrase which my fren mentioned...

" Not all scars can fade, not all pain goes away, not all wounds can heal when it is hidden deep inside you.."

I can't help but felt the same way she does.... My face wouldn't show the scars, wounds & pain, bcuz life has to go on.... the only difference, are you living it happily....

with the days that is getting nearer and nearer that Hua is leaving the country too... the worse torment, she would live quietly without us sending her off.... She just wanna leave the country quietly and at peace... I respsect her decision, bcuz i knew that she does not want teary goodbyes and not want us to see her missed this place called home....

All i could do is to spend as much time with her as i could and also respecting her decision, tat's all within all my means that i could do for her... And i know she definately capable in taking care of herself over there... For my future birthdays, it would not be the same anymore, cuz she would be there to celenbrate for me.. I would never ever ever forget her, be it the long dist.. I would save up and go over to find her whenever i could... In my heart, there would owaes be a place for her... Thank you, Hua.... My Best best tele-pathy pal.... i'll miss you indefinately.... A song for Hua... with my best wishes...

光

我想要的美好

明知永远到不了

给你一个微笑

但愿你明了

想念已经太美丽

因为曾经拥有你

虽然下颗流星

也要灿烂你的心

答应你我会努力呼吸

让世界知道我多爱你

就算用尽所有力气

留给你最幸福的回忆

答应我好好珍惜自己

让我们毫不遗憾离去

泪光化成满天星星守着你

答应你我会努力呼吸

让世界知道我多爱你

就算用尽所有力气

留给你最幸福的回忆

答应我好好珍惜自己

让我们毫不遗憾离去

泪光化成满天星星守着你

一闪一闪亮晶晶

那是我在对你眨眼睛

2009-03-22T16:08:00.007+08:00

Fun times..!!!!

Hola~~~~ Hola~~~~ lol, ignore me i'm getting hyper crazy nowadays, but i do hope is happy kind of craziness tat's in me.. hehe.... Past Thursday, have a farewell dinner with my colleagues, mimi ( Miria) one of our 'gossip' gang members last day is on coming Monday.. we had a secret & fun farewell dinner for her @ Hard Rock cafe.... The food portions are huge, when the bill comes for the amount of food we ordered and ate it was considered cheap... Mimi is the boss tat night... hehe...

Thursday

Mimi, me, Shuyen & Haze

Ladies tat Night

All of us

Happy Eaters

2 Jiemeis & the 'gossip' gang

After Dinner

The 'Gossip' gang , Singapore desperate housewives.. lolxx

Bye Bye MiMi, we'll miss you & your laughter center>
This is the gift we gave her...

P.S: Ying i want this!!!! lolxx

Friday

As Friday is still a working day, we didn't stay late, all of us reached home ard 11 plus.... We got a LV for her, i dunnoe the name...... lol but it's nice.. i want one too, Ying & Bee.. *pouting* i'll upload the pic in a while.. hehexx.. Friday, went DF with Bee's frens ( the beach vball hunks, tat's wad Bee called them... lolx.. ok la, they do meet the criterias of hunks.. lol...

Coincidentally, the hunks and i all wore white shoes, and all old schools kind... haha.... there is nothing being plan head on.. just pure coincidence... haha.... n missy Bee, wore heels so outcasts by us... lol..... the night was fun, except for some little hiccups, well nothing to mention for... Man, Bee's 2 frens, Junxiong & Shao hua they really can drink & what's worse their five-tens skills, i really got nothing to say... *salutes* though i oso did won them in some of the rounds but i was being torture by them seriously, they're killing my brain cells just by playing with them... arghxxx... haha....

Another of Bee's frens, Kelvin he's damn funny.. lolxx... keeps making jokes... lolxx.... Overall, it is a fun night full of laughters..... Well, tat's about all i need to mention.... buaiz.. enjoy the pics...

The old Schoolers..

Me & Bee

Cynthia & me

The 3 ladies

The old schoolers with faces

Damn sad, 5 85s vs 1 84 =(

The Jurong pple

Bee called me Nerdy, am i??

The 6oo+ pple, we lived just besides

83 Vs 84, ooPsssS

as Usual...

85 , 84, 83.. haha

no idea for this pic

the Gu-Niang who carried mine & Bee's bags.. xoxo

The Five-Teners

I can't c my face, humpxxx

2009-03-21T14:27:00.002+08:00

刘力扬 - 一个人就好

街挤满了欢笑

太不适合眼泪凑热闹

快跑快寻找

无人的转角

不优雅时候一个人最好

爱说退就退潮

我松开手回忆却没放掉

未来不来了地球继续绕

躲回温暖的梦我一个人就好

为什么越相信谁能依靠

越换来又一次灵魂寂寥

有没有永远再不会让心绝望的解药

如果说越踏出世界一脚

越不能保留住天真微笑

那从今以后我一个人过就很好

心很平静地跳

只是寂寞潜伏像海啸

突然某一秒偷袭我眼角

眼泪自己擦掉我一个人很好

为什么越相信谁能依靠

换来又一次灵魂寂寥

有没有永远再不会让心绝望的解药

如果说越踏出世界一脚

越不能保留住天真微笑

那从今以后我一个人过就很好

I think this song does ignite some emotions in me.. and i went to Han wen's blog he posted the video up.. i guess this song do really meant something for those whom have not found their 'ONE' for the moment and also those that lost somehow their 'ONE', which explains why they can't find their 'ONE' after they have lost the previous.... Go listen ba, i highly recommend it...

when i first heard this song, the lyrics caught my eyes... because it is so true and reflects every thought of mine... I somehow can feels that being alone sometimes tends to let one think and look at things in perspective differently.... i have been alone for 2 years already, and till now i am unsure of what's make it in my mind or heart...

i only can says i guess, some wounds just can't heal through time, and also won't show through your face, mind & heart.... it would just stay in one quiet spot in your subconcious and made urself believe that you've gotten over it yet creeps in every now and then to your mind or dreams and constantly reminds u of it.... sad isn't it...

i remember seeing one show that mentions this phrase tat etched deeply in my mind vividly, " those that can be seen may not be right or true, those that cannot be seen may be the utter truth and rightful ones...

shall blog about happy event when i received fotos.. lolz... ciaoz for now.... My fren's bdae celebration is postponed... i gonna nuaz at home... been out for the past 3 weekends, i think i really need some rest, adding on the crazy night @ fly yest... bye bye, have a nice weekend all..

2009-03-16T22:24:00.003+08:00

放了爱

你指向远方爱情很晴朗

笑问不如今后就我们俩

怕泪会反光钻进你的胸膛

但那不是感动是泪无法储藏

把美梦锁上以为是天堂

羽翼折起在你身边静静躺

却只能用目光在空中翱翔

还得乔装安份靠在你肩膀

放了爱为了爱这不是我

该怎么生活放了爱

你说你喜欢我笑得开朗

你越温柔我越不想撒谎

我已办不到你想要的那样

客气地配合你我感觉更勉强

别人的幸福何必要模仿

心不在何苦留躯壳在身旁

加满自由我要无重量飞翔

就算以分离收场

放了爱为了爱

这不是我该怎么生活

放了爱会明白

有种拥有叫做放手

我的心为爱流离失所

紧握最后回家的线索

等到寻获真正的我

证明我决定没有错

放了爱为了爱

这不是我想要的生活

放了爱你会明白

有种拥有叫做放手

放了爱放了爱

2009-03-16T21:51:00.000+08:00

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Marley and Me

i really can't stop myself to come online which i usually do not log in after work... cuz i have been facing the com the entire day, dun wanna spoil my eyes.. It must something that is really overwhelming that could gave me so much enthusiasm that i couldn't wait to blog about it...

Bingo, it is the title for this post. Yes, Marley and Me... I couldn't agreed more with Huishan which she made comments in her facebook, this movie made her cried buckets of tears.. and yes it does appy to me as well.... I just reached home not long ago with my sis, Li Rong after finishing this movie....

And yes, i cried alot as well.... I admit i does not really have a fetish for dogs, but i am not afraid of dogs, but gets uncomfortable with some of them... But i do loves and wish one day i could own my old dog as companion.... I have many frens that are dog-lovers and i'm definately not someone that would abuse dogs... If it wasn't that my mummy forbids me to own a dog, i would definately get one of my own...

I've owaes envious those frens of mine that have their own dogs, everytime hearing them talk abt it... i could feel the sense of closeness in them and of course their passion for them.... I truly believe that dogs are really good companions, sometimes even better than humans to humans... And i couldn't agree more with a sentence being quote in the movie.

"A dog doesn't care if you're rich or poor, educated or illiterate, clever or dull. Give him your heart and he will give you his. "

Which i personally feels that it doesn't only apply to dogs, perhaps if humans like us can understand the true meaning in it.. which i guess many do does that too.... Go catch this movie with your loved ones.... be it frens or family or boy/ger friends.... I am sure it would heart warming and sweet... Which there are many things in this world could not be bought by money and definately more precious than ever when you have lost some before...

Marley, Labador Breed... you're so cute.... =)))

Alright, it's late ciaoz.... Gotta go back to the conversation with BEe & Ying..... Sweet dreams...

2009-03-14T18:56:00.002+08:00

Recent affairsssSSsss

Hola~!~~~~ It's been very long since i last update.. hehe.. I can only say, i have spend lots of fun time and accumulating precious memories with a bunch of peeps... As usual, spending lots of time doing excercise activities with Bee & Ying... usual stuffs like kickboxing, beach vball.. A pity our kickboxing session just ended the past Tuesday.. And bee missed both the last 2 sessions... Nicholas Lim we'll miss u & Gombak too, we'll missed the provision shop goodies.. lolxx....

Also, managed to meet up with Saw Sean and Yongsing for a vball session, celebrated Sean's bdae for her.. Coming soon would be Qibin's & Nihui's.... Hopefully we are able to celebrate like we used to.. Anyway, also managed to met Missy Jiayi ( the busiest person in the whole world) at fly... Lolxx.. All thanks to Bee emo-ing & sudden craze of going to Fly to listen to the band... Had a fun night with the gers, photos at the bottom..

Also, met up with Wendy to celebrate her belated 22nd bdae with her @ Fullerton for Hi-Tea....Time flies isn't it.. sad.. And oso being fly Boeing 747 from Ms Leen... lolxxx... ( No photos as Ms wen says that she's too busy to upload.. lolxzxz.... !@#$%^&*....

One sad news though, Mimi one of our Gossip gang members is leaving our workplace for better prospects.. However, we promised to meet up every 3 mths and be Singpore versions of Desperate Housewife.. Lol.... We'll honour this.. keke...

Also, for the past 2 friday nights have been playing Mj with my colleague and her frens @ Wee Ming's Hse ( Yes, Wee Ming, swensen's ex colleague) lol.. The world is indeed small, wee meng's wife is my colleague, Cynthia's close pal.. Yesterday managed to win $2.60 SGD lol... Better than nothing... I'm not greedy u noe....

Oh ya, been crazily in love with Twilight Saga series.. Finished all the 4 novels already.. And infected Ying with it as well.. Jiayou Ying... Lol.... Waiting patiently for the number 5 Novel to be out... Edward & Bella & Renesmee... Happy Ending.. Kekex....

Besides all these, been trying my luck in 4D & totos, dreaming to strike but no worries, i am not addicted, i only buy when i have the inspirations... hahhazz.. More or less that's how i spend my recent life... Happy & contented enough.... Treasuring every moment spent with them... Who noes what would happen next.... I dun want to have the regret of loss anymore... Treasure what i'm having for now...

Ok, that's all for now.. going to bath already.. meeting Qibin for movie ( Coming Soon, Thai Horror movie).. yes bin.. lol.... it's good to have a guy to watch horror movie with me... u all noe how timid i am... hahaha...

Okie, ciaoz.... Gtg...Tk care all my frens.. till we meet again... Some Photos of the fun times.... Enjoy ur lovely weekend!!!!! =))

2009-01-24T13:30:00.003+08:00

Happy '牛' Year~!~!

Wishing everyone '牛岁福临门, 岁首春到户；牛年福满门, 新的一年开启新的希望，新的空白承载新的梦想, 拂去岁月之尘，让欢笑和泪水, 爱与哀愁在心中凝成一颗厚重的晶莹的琥珀。

Lunar New Year is coming in another 24 hrs..... Hahaha.... This year i don't really know what is happening.. Don't really have the new year mood, don't feel like going to house visit....

However, i did have an enjoyable shopping trip with Ying & Bee on 17 Jan 09.... We spend our day waiting at Jp, and went in to Baker's Inn for a sumptous dessert, 'Warm Chocolate cake' haha... Then we took a cabby to Bukit Timah Hawker Centre and met vin for lunch... hahaha.... After that Ying and i underwent plastic surgery once again.. hahaha.. we removed our moles as the previous time they did not remove it thoroughly.. Shit.. ugyl like hell for me... hahaha... luckily for now it's kinda of getting better already... If not die ah.... hahahha... Pics uploaded in below....

And i took a day's leave to JB with HIC group, this time with Baby, Abu, hua, Yee Ping, Brian, me & a colleague of Abu's, padia(i don't know how to spell his name) wahahaha.. He's our tour guide cum transport provider... hehe....

I am a happiest ger that day, i managed to buy the full 3 books of 'Twilight' they are 'New Moon' , ' Eclipse' & 'Breaking Dawn'.. I fell in love with the book... I can't bear to finish 'Twilight' cause i would have to wait till after CNY when Yee Ping collected them for me then i would be able to continue reading... SIAN AH.... Edward Cullen... hahahaaha.... And its cheap to buy in JB, i save quite a bit as well.... hehehe...Fell crazily in love once again, thanks to Jiahui, she persuade me to read them..... And also, i bought 3 pairs of Shoes as well... All my stuff i want all bought.. wahahha... That's y they said i'm the happiest ger that day and yes i am.... hahahaha... No picture taken for that event...

Tomorrow is New Year's Eve... going back to my dad's place for Reunion dinner, he texted me last night..... I am off since yesterday till 30 Jan 09... hehehe... Tomorrow we are going to my gege (Kim Hock)'s hse to gamble... Heng Heng Ah... Huat Ah.... ahhaha... i only gamble once in a year... Please fortune of god come to my side pleaseEEeeeeEEE...... Lolxxx

Later i am bringing my sisters & cousin to Far East and shop for their New Year Clothes.... it has become a yearly affair since last year.. But soon, they would kick me this old maid away and go with their frens... confirmed guranteed chop...... hahahaha... it's a cycle you know....

But well, as Chinese New Year approaches i had a few wishes.... Not gonna put it out here... Lazy.... And i know She's leaving for another country very soon.... I am wondering would she read the card if i give it to her??? I don't know about it.... But i wish to dedicate this song to her, this song meant quite a meaning to me.... I just hope that one day, just one day ...... All the Best and tk gd care....

GoodBye - L2M

Good Bye - L2M

I don't know what to say

And why I feel this way

And when I think of you

I know it's sad but true

Now that the bond is broken

Undo all the words that were spoken

And now I got to make up

This is what I want you to know

(Goodbye) Goodbye(My friend)

Oh my friend

This time

This is the end(So long)

So long(My friend)

I hope that one day

We will meet again

I don't know what to do

Cause now I'm here without you

How can I heal this pain

When all there is blame

I looking for a new start(Looking for a new start)

So I can mend this broken heart

And now I got to let go

This is what I want you to know

(Goodbye) Oh~ Goodbye (My friend)

Yeah~This time

This is the end(So long)

So long (My friend)

I hope that one day

We will meet again

I cannot wait for till there a chance

I must move on now

And leave the pain inside

Cause just give me the strength

Cause I cannot wait...

(Goodbye) Goodbye (My friend)

Oh~This time

This is the end

(This is the end)(So long)

So long (My friend)

I hope that one day

We'll meet again

(You're all my friend)

(Goodbye) Oh~ (My friend)

This time

This is the end (This is the end)

Oh~(So long) So long (My friend)

I hope that one day

We'll meet again

I don't know what to say

And why I feel this way..

Alright, gonna go bath and go out le.... Happy Lunar New Year... Wishing all good health, prosperity & all dreams come true...

Warm CHocolate Cake @ Baker's Inn JP, Yummy...!!!!

Please don't take my ugly face!!! help....hahaha

Bus 174..it's been ages since we take public transport together le...

Again

Trying to be Artistic

Bee & i

Bee & Ying

Does we look like 2 Triads Leader???

Crazy, lolxxx

Shodoku @ Bugis

These Lychees belongs to Ying

bee stay away from my Lychee.. haha

Before, only 2 sticks of Pokie

After, Especially for us

Yong Sing said she hand made the Mochi, and Bee gave the excuse of finished them off

Dessert Time again...

Old Gers..

Ah Gao and the crazy 3 of us

Ying, Kiss mE.... wahaha..

Where's YIng?? lolxx.

Yun & me..

CNY Shopping trip, 17 Jan 09.. Joy, Gernice & Joey sign off....

2009-01-14T22:25:00.002+08:00

ZUI XING FU DE SHI MV!! - Liang Wen Ying

最幸褔的事

梁文音

你撑着雨伞

接我那次

已经足够我

记得一辈子

我懂後来你

不是不坚持

爱情本来就

没万无一失

泪水离开了

你的手指

那不如让它

留在这信纸

我想女孩子

最贴心的是

让爱的人选

结束的方式

我最幸福的事

当过你的天使

趁鼻酸能掩饰

让我们像当时

拥抱最後一次

最幸福的事

吹蜡烛时你

总为我许愿的手势

为挚爱的人

在左边心口保留位置

是最幸福的事

可惜爱不是

童话故事

不能够永远

依赖着王子

再难过其实

只剩两个字

我怎麽忍心

为难你解释

我最幸福的事

当过你的天使

趁鼻酸能掩饰

让我们像当时

拥抱最後一次

最幸福的事

吹蜡烛时你

总为我许愿的手势

为挚爱的人

在左边心口保留位置

是最幸福的事

那一阵子有你

美得不像现实

多高兴每一幕都微笑着静止

我最幸福的事

牵着你的日子

一段爱从开始

即使分开我们

都对彼此诚实

最幸福的事

对那片海用力大喊永远的样子

想得起那时

那天和你傻笑着认识

是最幸福的事

This song is very nice & utterly meaningful, the MV also depicts a very nice and warming
journey of life which everyone should have gone through before.. I personally felt that the
MV really describes the different stages of life.. And the sentence of meaning being used in
the MV, it is very touching... Frankly, i cried everytime i watched the MV because it
somehow or rather really go deep into my heart... Be it, friendship, kinship, love & any form
of relationship which we once had... every senses i have would feel strongly whenever i hear
this song...

Hence, i dedicate this song to all relationships i once had and gone... And also to

those relationships i still share now.. Deep in my heart, i am really remorse, touched,
appreciative, guilty, heart warming, overwhelmed & lots more of emotions which i can't

expressed it out through words... Maybe when you guys hear the song, and observe
carefully the lyrics and most importantly watched the MV, you would know what i'm
referring to... Kudos to the Director, song writer & singer... Great Job... Nitey, ciaoz....

2009-01-12T20:52:00.002+08:00

Blissfulness

09.01.09 is over... i had an enjoyable time spent with them.... A beautiful bride, a handsome groom, lovely sisters ( cuz i'm one of them, hahahha), steady brothers ( Only know of 3)hehehe.... The gate-crashing, the wedding dinner, the yam seng & the closure, all happened in a blink of eye...

i am glad that i am given the chance to be part of the wedding.... Though i missed Armin, nothing beats the happiness & blissfulness of seeing a fren of 10 yrs to walk down the wedding aisle.... Moving towards a bright, happy & loving future hand in hand....

as usual i didn't have the photos on hand, but 1 thing i am very sure of is... i look super fat or to say i am super fat in the pictures & photos... gosh.... This really make me determined to slim down le... cannot give myself more excuses liao..
after CNY, i am going on strict diet le... giving myself 3 mths to slim dwn.... hehehe.. i need to prepare myself for my bdae makeover....

Ok gonna blog more for the next entry.. Going for a few more events.. hopefully i would be able to have some photos to put up... I kinda of missed my long hair, but my short hair now is growing already... wahaha.... Anyway, my moles on my face is kinda of healing, but there is scars.. oMG....!!! YING YING, please tell me what to DO arh................................
HElp!!!!!!!

2008-12-31T16:30:00.010+08:00

A fresh new start again.. Welcoming Year 2009..

Year 2008 is ending in another 8 hrs' time.... During this one year, i had my fair share of ups and downs:

-found a job that's super stress but a nice lady boss & colleagues;

-found myself a new idol, someone to look up to;

-cried less;

-felt better;

-learnt & started to treat & love myself better;

- still remorseful;

-became St James supporter & member;

-adding on another kor to my brothers list;

-felt happy & blissful after so long;

-attended Ting's ROM;

-celebrated lots of birthdays;

-met new frens;

--grown fatter even after stopping medicine;

- studied;

-found abit of myself back;

-procastinated;

-starting to see things optimisstically;

-seen my frens found their partner;

-spent more time with my family;

-still not talking to the step-dad;

--hospitalised;

-drank lots of alcohol;

-spend lots of money;

-travelled to BKK with my colleagues ;

-had company on my birthday;

-attended Koon & Yun Yun wedding;

-Finally saw my god-daugther after a year;

-went Temple with my Boss & asked for Divine lot(luckily it's medium good lot);

-Overcome lots of difficulty in work & manged to pull through;

- enrolled in kickboxing with Ying;

-went swimming with shujun;

-Bought 4D & nearly strike;

-had welcomed a nephew from Zen & Abdul;

-Started hanging out with Ying, Bee & Vin after clamming for while;

- removed my moles on my face...haha...

Let me elaborate slightly more on the removal of my moles on my face.. hehe, i've done it in no more than 3 hrs ago.... Ying accompanied & brought me to 'Beauty World' at Bukit Timah, a beauty parlour to remove my moles, i one shot removed 9 moles on my face for $100.00 hahaha... Resulted in being VERY UGLYnow, oh my god.... wahhaha.. It is the necessary step to a new me... hehee.. For those who would be seeing me this 7 days, please do not mind me.. wahahha... Tomorrow, i am gonna to give myself a new hairstyle.... hopefully it's nice, also i'm going on strict diet starting tomorrow... =), i am in progress of giving myself a total makeover once again and continue to stay it that way don't intend to be out of shape anymore, gonna adopt a totally new lifestyle....

Hence my wishlist and resolutions for Year 2009 are as follows:

1) Find back my true self & self confidence.

2) Slim down to 50 Kg once again (in 3 months time)

3) A makeover for myself on my birthday

4) Bring my mummy to Hong Kong as her bdae gift

5) Enrol in more classes like Hip Hop & New Jazz

6) Live a new theory, sleep early, wake up early

7) To pass and obtain drving license

8) Change a better Job with Higher Pay

9) Go lasik in Febuary

10) Lead a healthy lifestyle, quit drinking, drink only when necessary

Hehehe, that's the crucial ones for now & the wishlist in my blog still applies which would only add on and not decrease.... =p of course for my studies is to continue and pass all loh... hahaha.... Okie, some updates went to Ktv (Chervons) & Zouk last saturday with Bee, Vin & Ying for shuffling hahaha.... It's Ferry Corsten, i don't really know about trance music, but the music was good, met Mazzi, Larry(Samuel) & Brandon there... Nice to see them... =) Enjoyed myself as all three of us had a good workout ahahaha... Yesterday, went Kickboxing again, this time with Bee joining us too... hahha... Supposed to meet Yong Sing after kickboxing but she fly us kite last minute... hehe.... It was great & fun sweating it out....

Had been very busy at work for the past few days, there is too many things to do and rush for... Year end, adding fuel to it, i had to 'move house' away from my manager, sibei sian.... And had to hear the 'sister' of another department scream and shout like nobody business... Shit, but anyway once my boss tenders her resignation, i would to follow, hence bear with it for another 2 months will do... Gambate Neh!! wahahah.... Don't plan to go out for countdown, meeting hua for movie.... wanna spend a relaxing and cosy leap to the new year.... hehehe.... =)))

To close up the chapter of Year 2008 & leaping into Year 2009, i wish, prayed & hope for:

all my families, relatives, friends to be healthy, love & be loved, blissful, lucky & happy;

-all dreams & wishes to be fulfilled & a bright outlook for the bad economy;

-world peace hence please learn to love the earth more not forgetting the 3Rs', haa;

-those who are going away to other countries to take good care of themselves.

Alright, that's the little & simple wishes for the new year, afterall it is all in our own hands to create our future... =)

Oh ya, i am looking forward to my colleague, Haze's wedding at JB on 3rd Jan 09, gonna spend the night at her house & Fen's wedding on 09 Jan 09 & of course Trance event @ Zouk, Armin ~~ Armin~~ lolxx...

Happy new year everyone!!! Have an enjoyable new year countdown... =) ciaoz...

2008-12-25T14:02:00.004+08:00

December - The last month of a year....

Merry Christmas,everyone....!!!! It's the time of the year again, December used to be my favourite month of the year.... However, as the time goes by, i am afraid of december approaching.. Firstly, everytime december approaches it meant that i am getting older and older.. haaa... Secondly, it reminds me of the past, a past that is so unforgettable and so memorable at the same time.... Thirdly, it reminds and etched a deep root in my mind of my failures... Lastly, it's birthday month for my best fren, Sim Ying Ying and a best fren i used to have by my side and my demised brother of 10 good years....

Hence, December indeed is a very emotional month for me, be it good or bad... Well, it still didn't stop me from enjoying the company of my frens... I met up with Eileen & Wendy on Friday, 19 Dec 08 for our Xmas gathering at Bugis.. Den Shujun came and join us to Dbl O, after that we went down to St James, Mono then Powerhouse then Boilers then Dragonfly and Home sweet home.. It's Huiyee's Bdae celebration, and i'm glad i can be of help to her though we communicated in a way thru Ying being the middle woman.... I hope she had enjoyed her bdae, i am glad and contented to have seen Felice and her enjoying themselves that night... And hopefully i didn't spoil her mood... Glad to see Vin, Bee, KC and my kor as it been quite long since i saw them le.... Enjoyed myself that night too.... And guess wad, i really did not drink a sip of alcohol tat night.. =) Proud of myself.... hehe....

Someone told me that if i really love Felice and Huiyee as my fren, i should respect their decision that they don't want anything more to do with me... Because it is disrespectful if i insist in my way to apologise... I had done once on my birthday and they had no reaction meaning they had made up their mind... This hit on me hard, and i did had a long thought of it on that night... Bee is nice to offer me a ride home that night.... We had some catch up of recent affairs,the feeling is good.... I spent my Xmas eve with my family again this year, I realise that i had not really spent time at home since i was 13 years old, after my brother's demise i had this though inflicted in me that my mother don't love me anymore as she remarrys... And i spent most of my time outside with my frens.... Only after i fall sick and the collapsing of my world when he left and my loss of 2 beloved frens then i realised that my mum not only loves me and did all she can to be with me, it's only that i don't know how to appreciate it... Only after once, my superior cum my fren told me her views when she visited me at my house when i fell sick again and sent me to hospital then i realise what i've been missing all this while....

I don't know if it's too late for regret and turning back now, but i did tried my best to dote and spent time with my mum... I now spent lots of time with my mum and granny, bring them out spend time talking to them... And not rushing off everytime i see them like last time.... I realise it bonds us closer and i noticed my mum now smiles and laughs more, i even had a nickname by my mummy, she called me '傻瓜'.... i do agreed somehow, as i have been really
傻 for a good 4 yrs... Yesterday, when i reached home after work, she suddenly mentioned huiyee... I was shocked, i guess maybe she saw her that's why she brought up the subject... Well, i am glad that both of them is living happily... Alright, enough of emo-ing already... I have decided where and how to go on from here already.... My heart and mind has decided..... =)

Good news, my nephew, Danni has come to this happy world on 23 Dec 08, just in time for Xmas.. haha.... i haben go to visit them, would go and see the handsome baby boy and my brother and sis-in-law tomorrow... Hehe.... So happy... Also, my sister, Ms Ng Li Yuan has sucessfully promoted to Sec 1 of Pioneer Sec just as i predicted... whahahaha..... And Tuesday, Kickboxing class almost killed me, keke... It was fun with ying... and seeing my hands and legs got tangled up tickled me and Ying... wahhaha... Had a fun Xmas party at office too, gotten a Mickey Mouse watch and also won the 1st prize of the Lucky Draw, 2 movies tixs and a popcorn voucher(Economic crisis, budget constraint).... wahaha... Friday going to Yee Ping's Bdae party and Sat going to KTV.... i missed KTV so much so much.... gonna sing till i drop... hahahahaha....

Alright, gonna go.... Wishing everyone a blessed and fun Xmas.... Enjoy.... Cheerios....!!!!

P.S: Taken From Bee...

属于

我坚持的

都值得坚持吗?

我所相信的

就是真的吗?

如果我敢追求

我就敢拥有吗?

而如果都算了不要呢?

或许吧!

或许我永远都不要遇见他

或许吧!

或许我太天真了吧?

属于我的昨天之前的结局

我决定我的决定

属于我的明天之后的憧憬

我迷信我的迷信

属于我们点点滴滴的伤心

我们要各自忘记

属于我们闪闪发亮的爱情

我们再一起努力

属于风的那就去飞翔吧

属于海洋的那就汹涌

的属于我们的爱

该来的就来吧

为什么不敢呢

不要呢?

是他吧

命中早就注定了的那个他

是他吧

他原来就在这里啊

属于我的昨天之前的结局

我决定我的决定

属于我的明天之后的憧憬

我迷信我的迷信

属于我们点点滴滴的伤心

我们要各自忘记

属于我们闪闪发亮的爱情

我们还要努力

2008-12-11T09:06:00.002+08:00

Sweet Gathering..

Hello, i'm on leave today...hehe.. Going to JB for a day trip with the HIC peeps... There's still time so i thought might as well do an update... hahaha.... See my title, sweet gathering... This is because i'm really happy to meet up with ying and hua 2 days earlier b4 ying's bdae... Last year on her actual day, bcuz of me ying didn't get to spend a good bdae but an unhappy one... It is my fault, and i do not know how can i compensate her...

All i can do within my might is to spend one with her, though i am unable to get the last yr's group back and gather to celebrate for her and i could only get one.. But i did somehow gave one to look forward for her next yr bdae gift.... The old me, the old old bubbly loud loud me... And a new me, after all these torments to myself....

Most importantly, being myself with a positive heart... Hopefully, i would be able to make... Ying , i will work hard at it.... For myself, all pple who is willing to loves me and those that i had let down...

Alright, enough of the emo-ing part, haha... here's a funny incident, On Tuesday, Ying and i signed up for a kickboxing class at Bukit Gombak... Ying was unable to attend cuz she's still flying high up in the air... hahahaha.... But guess what, dunno is ying lucky or i unlucky, =PpppP the class instructor did not turn up, in fact didn't even know that she's supposed to have a class at Gombak... What the hell.... this is caused by a very intelligent staff of the Gombak's stadium.... She msged all the students that the class is confirmed EXCEPT the instructor.. Yes, your eyes didn't play a trick on you.. The instructor was NOT INFORMED, and she cannot take the class cuz she had other class.... ARghhhhzzxxxx.... This is really infruiating.... TMD.... I wasted my time to go down and wait like a kukoo.... Ended up with a new class starting from next week and i cannot attend.... REally ji dan gao de..... Bth.....

Okie, complaint finished... hahaa... now here's some fotos of Ying's mini celebration with us... Most of the pics are ying's solo, what to do... She's the 'Zhu Jiao' tat day.... hehe.... Enjoy....

P.S: Pics to be upload another day... connection too slow and no time liao... hehe = PpP

2008-11-29T12:58:00.004+08:00

Finding strength within

I was watching cable tv,

and in between channels switching

i came across this song,

by Fan fan, fan wei qi...

I've heard this song before

quite a number of times and

found it soothing, but didn't really

took notice of the song lyrics..

I have long heard of Fan fan's talent,

and also fell in love with many

of her songs... one of it is

"一个像夏天一个像秋天"

which i have many many emotions

in it and many many more....

This song is one of her new song

cum "zhu da ge" which is release

in her recent "jing xuan ji"

upon hearing it, i took a closer

look to her lyrics, and found

it to be really meaningful....

Simply love it,

and it can't stop my emotions

from coming up, in fact my tears drop...

I thought of the coming fact that,

Hua is leaving us,

or rather me soon...

She's someone i can say one

of the few others whom i cannot live without...

And without means, those that

would throw everything off her hand

if i need help...

and the numerous times that

she pulled and walked me through

umpteen times of down periods..

Besides hua, it came up on

my minds a few persons as well,

strangely enough there is no him in it...

Perhaps the pain of losing them,

really shook me badly,

that it made me realise that

it wasn't worth anything more than to

degenerate myself anymore, any longer....

And i'm suffering the effects of it already,

though bad news came on me more than good news,

but i'm now facing it bravely and

no longer wish to run away from it anymore...

In fact, i'm now facing it all alone,

alone as in i'm taking it upon myself,

not relaying on anyone...

And i wanna walk it through

before i let everyone know..

At first, the blow was very hard

to dealt with alone,

but this is what i chose,

because i realy need to train

myself hard enough...

There will be no one to hang on to,

even my mum can't help cuz it within me...

I only need mental support will do,

i'll do just fine and i'll pull through...

I would not give up so easily...

Trust me this one last time,

this is just my last appeal...

That's all i ever needed...

一颗心的距离-- 范玮琪

一双闪着泪光的眼睛

要多努力才能把雨看成星星

握住我手但别给我同情

执着的人要从倔强寻找勇气

好像很近瞬间又远离

很难实现才叫梦想才要决心

我们终于一起来到这里

当我激动不能言语把我抱紧

我们隔着一颗心的距离

有笑有哭地去回忆

夏天秋天纯真蜕变的电影

会是一辈子做不腻的事情

静静隔着一颗心的距离

交换最真实的情绪

庆幸太不勇敢的纪念日里

你曾经给我多重要的鼓励

好像很近瞬间又远离

很难实现才叫梦想才要决心

我们终于一起来到这里

当我激动不能言语把我抱紧

我们隔着一颗心的距离

有笑有哭地去回忆

夏天秋天纯真蜕变的电影

会是一辈子做不腻的事情

静静隔着一颗心的距离

交换最真实的情绪

庆幸太不勇敢的纪念日里

你曾经给我多重要的鼓励

我想说没有你的声音

像没有歌词的旋律

就算可以很美很好听

也少了意义上的确定

我们隔着一颗心的距离

有笑有哭地去回忆

夏天秋天纯真蜕变的电影

会是一辈子做不腻的事情

静静隔着一颗心的距离

交换最真实的情绪

庆幸太不勇敢的纪念日里

你曾经给我多重要的鼓励