It's a hella busy yet fulfilling week for me... Finally, i had chance to communicate with my

very own lappy.... haa... other than starting on a new job which it does gave me job satisfaction

that made me super duper busy that i don't even have the time to slack and day dream....

I'm glad that i didn't disappoint my very ownself, when you don't even bother to be

discipline abt your very own life meaning, who else would... I don't know if it would be too late

for me to realise or i could tell give myself a pat on my shoulder as a mini little comforting

reward that ' it's better late than never...'

But that doesn't mean i'm really satisfied with what i'm

having now.. there are much much more things for me to achieve and prove before i really would

allow myself a break.... For now i'm gonna work hard till the Chinese New Year break... I guess

i'm kinda half unlucky and lucky this coming Rat year, cuz i gt super super long leave for the

Festive season... Lucky in a sense that i've gt an ample break of 8 days of holidays... lolz....

Unlucky due to the deduction of ' my very own leave' haa.... well, be it gd or bad, i'm juz gonna

see it as a gd one....

I've learnt to stop self-procastinating and look forward and towards the

better end... Though, things doesn't seem to go very well but i'm gonna look to the brighter &

cheery side of it.... This is one thing that i've learnt and realise of it, thanks to 'Them'.... Though

till now i still put it in my mind, but i know in their heart, i guess i'm as good as not existing... But

i still hope that someday i will and would be able to tell them in person how sorry i was.... I

realise my folly mistake was a great trauma and disappointment....

I was foolish enough to not

cherish it when it right beside me.... only to realise and regret when it's gone from you.. I know

that's how human learn form their mistake... Whether i would be able to be forgiven or to say be

forgotten, i don't dare to pin any hope on it.. I could only hope and pray for the best in

everything they do and felt happy for them in my heart and silently.. Though i'm unable to

share their joy and pain with them but i'm glad that they all had many good deserving ones rite

beside them cheering them on...

That's how human changed for the better and work towards the brighter side of the life...

Even if there's no one ard me to push me forward, if i gave up on myself.... even if a million of

pple is right behind pushing u and helping u, u won't move.... Human only lost to themselves and

nothing else... Once again, though u both might not hear it, i wanna say it here again I'm Sorry....

I wanna say it to u both face to face one day, though i would never know when but i'm still

looking forward to it.. All the very best.... =)

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