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GerNice Lim.

♥ Breathing till date, 25yrs

♥ a day to cRy, 29 Aug

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Saturday, November 29, 2008

Down the memory lanes ♥


Finding strength within

I was watching cable tv,
and in between channels switching
i came across this song,
by Fan fan, fan wei qi...
I've heard this song before
quite a number of times and
found it soothing, but didn't really
took notice of the song lyrics..

I have long heard of Fan fan's talent,
and also fell in love with many
of her songs... one of it is
"一个像夏天一个像秋天"
which i have many many emotions
in it and many many more....
This song is one of her new song
cum "zhu da ge" which is release
in her recent "jing xuan ji"
upon hearing it, i took a closer
look to her lyrics, and found
it to be really meaningful....
Simply love it,
and it can't stop my emotions
from coming up, in fact my tears drop...
I thought of the coming fact that,
Hua is leaving us,
or rather me soon...
She's someone i can say one
of the few others whom i cannot live without...
And without means, those that
would throw everything off her hand
if i need help...
and the numerous times that
she pulled and walked me through
umpteen times of down periods..

Besides hua, it came up on
my minds a few persons as well,
strangely enough there is no him in it...
Perhaps the pain of losing them,
really shook me badly,
that it made me realise that
it wasn't worth anything more than to
degenerate myself anymore, any longer....
And i'm suffering the effects of it already,
though bad news came on me more than good news,
but i'm now facing it bravely and
no longer wish to run away from it anymore...
In fact, i'm now facing it all alone,
alone as in i'm taking it upon myself,
not relaying on anyone...
And i wanna walk it through
before i let everyone know..
At first, the blow was very hard
to dealt with alone,
but this is what i chose,
because i realy need to train
myself hard enough...
There will be no one to hang on to,
even my mum can't help cuz it within me...
I only need mental support will do,
i'll do just fine and i'll pull through...
I would not give up so easily...
Trust me this one last time,
this is just my last appeal...
That's all i ever needed...

一颗心的距离-- 范玮琪

一双闪着泪光的眼睛

要多努力才能把雨看成星星

握住我手但别给我同情

执着的人要从倔强寻找勇气

好像很近瞬间又远离

很难实现才叫梦想才要决心

我们终于一起来到这里

当我激动不能言语把我抱紧

我们隔着一颗心的距离

有笑有哭地去回忆

夏天秋天纯真蜕变的电影

会是一辈子做不腻的事情

静静隔着一颗心的距离

交换最真实的情绪

庆幸太不勇敢的纪念日里

你曾经给我多重要的鼓励

好像很近瞬间又远离

很难实现才叫梦想才要决心

我们终于一起来到这里

当我激动不能言语把我抱紧

我们隔着一颗心的距离

有笑有哭地去回忆

夏天秋天纯真蜕变的电影

会是一辈子做不腻的事情

静静隔着一颗心的距离

交换最真实的情绪

庆幸太不勇敢的纪念日里

你曾经给我多重要的鼓励

我想说没有你的声音

像没有歌词的旋律

就算可以很美很好听

也少了意义上的确定

我们隔着一颗心的距离

有笑有哭地去回忆

夏天秋天纯真蜕变的电影

会是一辈子做不腻的事情

静静隔着一颗心的距离

交换最真实的情绪

庆幸太不勇敢的纪念日里

你曾经给我多重要的鼓励

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Wednesday, November 26, 2008

Down the memory lanes ♥

元卫觉醒 - 鸵鸟


你说不爱了


于是我就承担


不问我心里想的是相反


阳光很灿烂


我却笑不出来


它让我看清楚你已离开


我忍着悲伤和无奈


就躲在房间不出来


无法阻挡


时间在快转


只能把爱


藏在回忆深海


不想面对的事


学着习惯成自然


我会把爱


隐藏到谁都看不出来


它还在继续


却与你无关


你说不爱了


于是我就承担


不问我心里想的是相反


阳光很灿烂


我却笑不出来


它让我看清楚你已离开


那动人完美的独白


没说完你就先离开


就算遗憾我也不推翻


只能把爱


藏在回忆深海


不想面对的事


学着习惯成自然


我会把爱


隐藏到谁都看不出来


它还在继续


却与你无关


这不是鸵鸟的心态


只是我还无法释怀


我还爱你再不会说出来


只能把爱


藏在回忆深海


不想面对的事


学着习惯成自然


我会把爱


隐藏到谁都看不出来


它还在继续


却与你无关


只能让爱


离开回忆深海


不想面对的事


只能学着习惯成自然


对你的爱


沉默了


我却还在依赖


你要的幸福


却与我无关


你要的幸福


却与我无关



Sometimes i wonder, if the best person who noes me in this world is Hanwen... Haa, some way or another, i feel that he almost share the same thinking or feeling as me.... I meantby procatination... We somehow share a same instinct of melancholy... can't help feeling this way...




Went Ying's blog and read her post, she mentioned that it seem so impossible for me to return to the seowli she knew in sec sch... suddenly, this caught my attention.... I was thinking hard enough, when is the last time i really laugh or smile from the bottom of my heart....



And thinking back, all past memories of me in sec school came up.... i realise that when i'm in sec sch, my signature is being a very noisy and fun person. My laughter nvr fails to come up and play a part... And i can say that ' 我是一个敢爱敢恨的人,而且也是一个有话敢敢说的人'... And everyone who knew me back then, knew me as a person who loves to laugh, and fun-loving person.... Maybe as age and cruel reality caught up with me, i started to lose myself.... 我也变得胆小了, 没有那种勇 气去敢敢做, 敢敢讲。。。



Where has this seowli gone to????? Alot of people had mentioned that i had lost myself, and they hope or wished that they can find back the me, which they knew....They said that they cannot see it in me now anymore... How can i not understand the point?? But when i can't even find my usual and old self, how are the others able to find??



I rmbr, in the past i am the one always protecting others.... But now i can't even protect my own self, where do i find the strength to protect others.... I knew that these 2 years, i have been living in self-procastination... this is what i am very well aware of.... But i just can't seem to get out of it.... i don't even have the courage to step over a thin line of hurdle... No matter how much i have been trying to tell myself... Nothing seems to work....



Ying this mentioning, really really gave me a big question mark..... 我何得何能去爱别人, 如果我不懂得爱自己??? 所以我发誓, 只要我不懂得自爱。。。 我就没有资格去爱别人。。。
我不懂这么多久, 但我希望我能够走出自己设下给自己的框。。。。Pray hard for me ba, ying.... i'm moving towards to find my lost self and my way...

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Happiness in a nutshell
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Down the memory lanes ♥

你不是真正的快乐 - 五月天
人群中哭着
你只想变成透明的颜色
你再也不会梦或痛或心动了
你已经决定了
你已经决定了
你静静忍着
紧紧把昨天在拳心握着
而回忆越是甜就是越伤人
越是在手心留下密密麻麻深深浅浅的刀割
你不是真正的快乐
你的笑只是你穿的保护色
你决定不恨了
也决定不爱了
把你的灵魂关在永远锁上的躯壳
这世界笑了
于是你合群的一起笑了
当生存是规则
不是你的选择
于是你含着眼泪飘飘荡荡跌跌撞撞地走着
你不是真正的快乐
你的笑只是你穿的保护色
你决定不恨了
也决定不爱了
把你的灵魂关在永远锁上的躯壳
你不是真正的快乐
你的伤从不肯完全的愈合
我站在你左侧
却像隔着银河
难道就真的抱着遗憾一直到老了
然后才后悔着
你不是真正的快乐
你的笑只是你穿的保护色
你决定不恨了
也决定不爱了
把你的灵魂关在永远锁上的躯壳
你不是真正的快乐
你的伤从不肯完全的愈合
我站在你左侧
却像隔着银河
难道就真的抱着遗憾一直到老了
你值得真正的快乐
你应该脱下你穿的保护色
为什么失去了
还要被惩罚呢
能不能就让悲伤全部结束在此刻
重新开始活着

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Sunday, November 23, 2008

Down the memory lanes ♥

Deeply in love & Crazy over '籃球火'....

Haa, haben been blogging recently.... Did a lot of thinking, playing MIA for a few days... I realise that sometimes spending some quality 'Me' time does help alot in sorting out and reflecting yourself.

I won't deny that i kinda of ' 搞自闭' sydromne, but i do really feel better doing this.. Ying and Hua was quite worried of me, bcuz i went to attend Koon's wedding last Sunday and had seen Daryl... And they couldn't reached me on Monday, so they ended up calling my home.... lol..


I understand they are worried abt me, thinking that i might do something silly again after seeing him once again... I only can say, it's true that i would still notice about him, and he's thinner than before... But 1 thing for sure the feeling is completely different from the last time i saw him on my birthday at zouk last year... I don't know how to explain, but frankly speaking, upon and after seeing him, 2 person came up on my mind instead.. I believe i need not say it out, those who noes what's going on would knew who am i referring to... Indeed, at first i thought that i would be sad or afraid... Contrary, i felt nothing but only happiness for the wedding couple and the comfort of seeing those old colleagues after so long....


It is heart-warming when all those whom i once work with came and ask how have i been doing all these while...... One thing for sure, in future, though i didn't talk to him, deep in my heart i know if one day i meet him with his gf on the streets, this time i would be able to smile and walk past them proudly... Bcuz i understand that everything's change and different already... This is something which i've experienced and conclude after attending the wedding, and i'm more than certainly glad that i did not avoid and face up the reality by attending the wedding...


The wedding inspired me alot... And in my mind, i thought that though the lesson was learnt the harsh and hard way, but it did taught me the lessons i deserved to learn.... Okie after blabbering on some of my inner thoughts, i need to go on to my topic of the day... That is the title i've wrote on the title and my centralised heading.. wahaha..


I've to admit that i am so crazily in love of this taiwanese drama "籃球火" ... keke... i'm now chasing like mad... Mainly is because the main characters is all my favourite hunks... OMG!~!~!~
我跟你讲我超爱看的, 而且疯狂的爱上。。。。他们好帅啊!!!!! wahahaha.... Lol..... let me tell you, and it is really very very very very nice to watch.... It's been a very long time, since i am willing to forego everything and anything to stay indoor and chase like a mad ger... hur hur hur.....


And tell you this, so coincidentally the songs for the drama is only first class.. woo hoo.. i'm really going mad over this... Hahaha... I'm also shocked for this craziness, i'm definately gonna buy and re-watch it dozen of times, even till the day i bcum old hag...wahhaha... So engrossed in it... Now i'm blogging is bcuz i'm waiting for the buffering... so suffering, waiting.... keke... And this post of mine, took me about 5 hrs to have this ending.. lolx.... Don't blame me, it's simply too nice to make me resist.. hur hur...


Alright, i gonna end here... enough of my nonsense.... lol... good night for the time being, and i'm going back to watch somemore... hoo hoo...... =PppPPpp.....



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Friday, November 7, 2008

Down the memory lanes ♥

Hospitalised


Actually, don't intend to mention my being hospitalise.... but my nosy sister announced it to the world... And thanks to her for providing me the opportunity to blog it out... 谢谢你啊, Ms Li Yuan, Serene Ng....

Nothing serious, just kept vomiting non-stop& fainted at home... didn't informed anyone except hua cuz i dun intend to stay... Hence, went to hospital for drip... indeed really for drip man... one short drip 3 pkts of saline... Doc said i'm seriously dehydrated due to 3 days nvr even touched 1litre of liquid... fainted mainly bcuz din eat for 3 days... cuz wadever i put into my mouth i would 'waterfall' it out.... wad's the difference, might as well nt eat right.... waste food.... haa...

Not joking, jus trying to take it lightly... Anyway, thanks bee for her concern... she msged me to help her book a room for her fren's bdae tml.... Hence, i mentioned it to her and she juz msged me....

Told her that i'm super bored at home, and she asked me to chill with my frens... I can use my hands and count how many are still with me... =) It's something sad, but i'll leave with it... Ever since, i lost 2 of them... my frens for company i can count with my 1 palm of hands.... Used to have jiayi to go mono wif me on weekend for chilling.. and now she's got a bf... muz learn to let go... haa....

As for Hua, she did most of the time acc me out for movies, ktv la.. this and that.... Other than that... no one le ba, she told me not to be so negative... i told her it's truth, all the others have their own life to lead, and i'm nt in the grp anyone.. I don't blame anyone, only myself... Hence, i'm living it with acceptance that's all....

It's not that i mentioned it like no la-sa, it hurts.... but i have to face this myself... I'm fine...
Thanks bee for your concern... Shan too, the moment she saw my msn that i'm dying she msged me str thinking what happen to me... And Hua too, her concern for me when she knew back on sun that i'm already not feeling well, Baby tay too.. hehe... Nice of him to call immediately upon hearing the news....

gtg, tk care all my frens..

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Tuesday, November 4, 2008

Down the memory lanes ♥

你的回话凌乱着
在这个时刻
我想起喷泉旁的白鸽
甜蜜散落了
情绪莫名的拉扯
我还爱你呢
而你断断续续唱着歌
假装没事了
时间过了走了
爱情面临选择
你冷了倦了我哭了
离开时的不快乐
你用卡片手写着
有些爱只给到这真的痛了
怎么了你累了
说好的幸福呢
我懂了不说了爱淡了梦远了
开心与不开心
一一细数着你再不舍
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻
我都还记得
你不等了
说好的幸福呢
我错了泪干了放手了后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着
要怎么停呢
你的回话凌乱着
在这个时刻
我想起喷泉旁的白鸽
甜蜜散落了
情绪莫名的拉扯
我还爱你呢
而你断断续续唱着歌
假装没事了
时间过了走了
爱情面临选择
你冷了倦了我哭了
离开时的不快乐
你用卡片手写着
有些爱只给到这真的痛了
怎么了你累了
说好的幸福呢
我懂了不说了爱淡了梦远了
开心与不开心
一一细数着你再不舍
那些爱过的感觉
都太深刻我都还记得
你不等了
说好的幸福呢
我错了泪干了放手了后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着
要怎么停呢
怎么了你累了
说好的幸福呢
我懂了不说了爱淡了梦远了
我都还记得
你不等了
说好的幸福呢
我错了泪干了放手了后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着
要怎么停呢

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Down the memory lanes ♥

Resting


Wah, i'm super low morale having gastric flu once again... MC 2 days... It's torturing man, imagine

I can only drink water in intervals, bcuz wadever i put in my mouth i would vomit out after
awhile. Is it a sign that i'm growing too fat, i bet it is... haa...

1st Nov 08 is over, the gathering was fun, and i glad Ying enjoyed it cuz she's proud of
herself that she's the organiser and it turns out really well and success. After the gathering,
i went down to Orchard to meet hua.... She's drooling over the LV and the coach bag... wahaha..

But after that we went down to Dong for a drink cum peeking session.. lolx... Hua knows about it,
also at there she broke the news to me that she would be leaving next May 09 to Canada... It
was heart-wrenching and a blow to me..Really... Hence i sang her a song of Fan Wei Qi - 一个像
夏天,一个像秋天。。。This song really describes us to the exact similarity.. Thinking back, we
knew each other at HIC, first sight of her really irks me... haha... and who knows we became so
close till we had the kind of '心有灵犀’between us... This thought of it, saddens me to the bit....


Actually, she had told me long ago about her mum's decision to migrate.... I should have enough time to prepare myself already.. So i long ago should have 心里准备... But it somehow, human emotions la....But i make sure i would save up every bit to go to canada and visit her every year... once i finish my studies, i would go over and find her if by then i had no bf... which i probably would not have... hahaha.... But i have also told hua not to shock me with the news " Hey, fly over and be my bridemaid, i'm getting MARRIED!!!" Lol, of course i would be very very happy for her, but hope she won't shock me with a lightning news... wahaha..... kekex...

Here's the picture which i missed and never thought that i would have the chance again.. thanks

Ying for the effort.... though we are like strangers, however i am happy and contented enough to be in the
same picture with her again... Also, the song lyrics dedicated to Hua & Ying.... and to the friendship i have
lost and all the friendships i have gotten....

The good old times & fond memories..


一个像夏天一个像秋天 ( 1 like autumm 1 like spring ) - 范玮琪 ( fan wei qi - fan fan )

第一次见面看你不太顺眼
谁知道后来关系那么密切
我们一个象夏天一个象秋天
却总能把冬天变成了春天

你驮我离开一场爱的风雪
我背你逃出一次梦的锻炼
遇见一个人然后生命全改变
原来不是恋爱才有的情节

如果不是你我不会相信
朋友比情人还死心塌地
就算我忙恋爱把你冷冻结冰
你也不会恨我只是骂我几句
如果不是你我不会确定
朋友比情人更懂得倾听
我的弦外之音我的有口无心
我离不开darling更离不开你

你驮我离开一场爱的风雪
我背你逃出一次梦的锻炼
遇见一个人然后生命全改变
原来不是恋爱才有的情节
如果不是你我不会相信
朋友比情人还死心塌地
就算我忙恋爱把你冷冻结冰
你也不会恨我只是骂我几句

如果不是你我不会确定
朋友比情人更懂得倾听
我的弦外之音我的有口无心
我离不开darling更离不开你

你了解我所有得意的东西
才常泼我冷水怕我忘形
你知道我所有的丢脸的事情
却为我的美好形象保密

如果不是你我不会相信
朋友比情人还死心塌地
就算我忙恋爱把你冷冻结冰
你也不会恨我只是骂我几句

如果不是你我不会确定
朋友比情人更懂得倾听
我的弦外之音我的有口无心
我离不开darling更离不开你

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