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♥ a day to cRy, 29 Aug

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♥ Starsign, Virgo

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♥ A Degree

♥ Successful future

♥ A Guardian Angel

♥ Pass my Car License

♥ Lasik Surgery

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♥ Dreams & Wishes come true

♥ To Slim Down by OCT 2010!!!!!!

♥ HongKong Retreat

♥ Taiwan Retreat

♥ Japan Retreat

♥ Korea Retreat

♥ Europe Retreat

♥ a plasma TV & soundsystem

♥ a place of my own

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♥ More Clothes, Shoes, bags, accessories

♥ More Money

♥ More beauty products

♥ More knowledge, wits & experience

♥ More self confidence

♥ More younger & pretty always, lolxx =D

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♥ Saturday, August 23, 2008

Down the memory lanes ♥

Gone with the wind
In LOving Memory of AH SEOW...... 22nd August 08.

Yesterday, 22nd Aug 08 at 14. 01pm i received a call from Jiliang (Ken). I missed the call

and he redialled the 2nd time again.. I missed it once again, and i returned my call with a heavy
heart. Believed it anot, he's not the kind to call twice in a row if it ain't important, and my first
thought was Ah Seow, the bball coach that once dote on me like a daughter and taught me the
skills of bball...

Yes, he passed away yesterday when i heard the confirmation from Jiliang, my heart

sanked.... A couple of months ago, i bought and visited him with his favourite food, 'WU XIANG
& BEE HOON' and visited him at NUH when his condition wasn't tat bad yet.... It taken to a toll
on him 2 mths ago, but i was contented that he is kinda of better... Yet, yesterday the news of
him passiong away saddened me.. He lived his life dutifully for his passion of Bball... He had his
fair share of ups and downs in his life and his students whom had grown up under his guidance,
his team...

I am going down to his wake tonight, but hua advised that for my health ( I had a fever last night), my luck and the

fact tat it is special month and also the fact tat my bdae is next fri.... i shouldn't attend both white
& red affairs... But i just couldn't bring myself not going down, cuz he's afterall someone whom
shower me with love, care and concern when i'm young.. and there are many fun memories i had
with him and jiliang they all.... It is afterall my past and etched in my memories... I had to go
down and pay my last respects no matter what.... I'm going for a movie with Hua first then to his
wake at Jurong East... I'm afraid of going dwn seriously, i'm nt afraid of the ridicule that i would
received that i've grown fat or whatever, i'm in fact afraid that i would cry, this is pple said if you
cried for a person who passed on, it would add on to their burden... however, i couldn't control
everytime..

But i couldn't bear to miss his wake, because i wanna see him for the last and final time, also

to say goodbye to him also to send him for his final journey.... His passing on really made me
understood, we as human would never know what's going to happen to ourselves the very next
day.... Only to treasure everything that's right before your eyes at this very moment.... It set me
thinking for what i've lost and what have i achieved.... till now, i still had my queries, my doubts...
I'm afraid of losing my dear ones, i believed that everyone too... till now, it still came as a shock
to me... Thursday night, Shu jun and i had a long and good talk, she said she couldn't bear to see
me being so bad to myself, when i had absolutely a clear idea of what's wrong with me and why
couldn't i just bring myself to cross that line... why should i hide myself up and lost all my self-
confidence.... I wasn't like that at all for what she've known me.... I knew it myself very very well
and yes, i just couldn't cross that thin line in front of me.. And she's absolutely right that i had
only myself to cross it and no one else can help me..

She said i had a choice to cross or to stay lingering in that thin line... This set me thinking

and i knew it myself deep down... She's not the first person to remind me this, a few persons had
did their part, however to be frank i had lost all courage.... i knew i had to picked myself up from
where i fell, the fact of my condition had been bothering and holding me back... I couldn't make
myself believe..... I had lost the self-c in me.... Help.......................................................~~~~~~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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♥ Happiness in a nutshell
14:56

♥ Friday, August 8, 2008

Down the memory lanes ♥

This is so touching... I sob uncontrollably after finished seeing.. Hence, decided to share it to

all my frens... I haven't been a true, real or great fren.. But i would try my very best to be

one..... Enjoy...

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♥ Happiness in a nutshell
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Down the memory lanes ♥

Random Thoughts...

Heard a news yesterday tat someone 1 cared for was admitted into hospital... froze for

awhile, but breathe a sign of relief that she's safe and sound. Felt like visiting her secretly, but

afraid to be discovered, hence only sent my silent regards to her through frens... Hope she rest

well and get well soon.... She's a strong ger with lots of pple loving her, she wld definately have a

speedy and well recovery...

Not working today, office closed for PH-In-Lieu today... sianz.... And next Monday have to

go back to work when the rest of Singapore is having their day off... Boo... i rather work today

and rest on Monday.... Boo Boo Boo... Lolz.. Later would be meeting Jiayi & Qiuting to celebrate

Ting's advance bdae... Happy Advanced Bdae to you Ting... lolx ~!~!~! Going to the doc soon..

Hopefully i can pass thru the test and stop my medicine... I wanna get my body back, it's

torentuos and suffering to me... I'm gonna give myself 2 mths to go back to 52kg, argh i hate

seeing myself in photos and mirror... Which is why i chose to tk lesser photos.... Arghzzzz....

Brought work back home to do.. Company changing system, till now still haven't finished

been OT-ing since 2 weeks ago... Gt so many things to do... sian arhz... Haaa.... who ask it is my

rice bowl... Lame... Suddenly thought of something sad... the flashback was still deeply etched in

my mind.. All along, i just chose to hide it up well in a corner, but as long as words, pictures,

songs or pple... It'll trigger it to appear once again, this sucks... I dunno if it is a form of avoidance

or it does make sense since it is part of our memory.... however, it's just a random thought and

scene tat suddenly appear... Dun mind my rambling a s it goes on and on... haa.. just wanna had a

slight breather..

Alright, gotta go now... I really hope for my bdae wish to come true, i am not greedy i only

had one.... Take care all my frens, and hope to see ya all real soon..... Get well real soon (to her)

P.s: A nice song i discover recently... i like the lyrics... so for u all to enjoy.. mayb would put on the song soon.... haa...

Oh ya, Happy 43th Birthday, SINGAPORE!~!~!.... We've gone so far le... Gambate!!!!!

原諒我

請不要分了以後

還記得親吻過的承諾

妳的永久 已不屬於我

默默低頭那時我很多話梗在喉嚨

妳的笑妳的快樂不是我

愛太多想太多

我能感受 他比我適合

愛放了手 我偽裝冷漠

比妳先說分手

請原諒我

原諒我不成熟

不愛妳是藉口

好讓妳離開我

請原諒我

好想自私將妳佔有

一個寂寞就給我承受

換妳過更好的生活

請不要分了以後還記得親吻過的承諾

妳的永久 已不屬於我

愛過恨過哭過也笑過

親吻過妳的脆弱

其實我比誰都要懦弱

原諒我

必須假裝愛錯

別讓時間倒流

我怕說不出口

原諒我

沒有解釋太多

心痛 別無所求徹底忘了我

愛原來有捨得

我難過 我才懂 。。。


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♥ Happiness in a nutshell
12:44

♥ Saturday, August 2, 2008

Down the memory lanes ♥



你没想像中爱我 《一切完美》主题曲

你小心翼翼

牵我手其实是担忧

藏不住我自尊也投降

活在她之下我 好傻

你字字句句说 你不爱她

那又是什么

让你害怕我疑惑但是原谅

因为你留下我 好傻

不是我不说就不在意空等候

原来 你没想像中那么爱我

我不懂该拿什么安慰我的难受你的存在

让我更寂寞你寸步不离

像天使的她挥霍我的爱

从不放心上我有一丝无奈

也有一些明白该

放开不是我不说就不在意空等候原来

你没想像中那么爱我

我不能再从你的怀抱感觉到什么

不爱我别再说

假装爱那是撒盐在伤口啊...

谁说我不在意空等候

原来 你从来都没深刻爱我

我才懂不是我不心痛

其实是心没了感受呜... ...

你没想像中爱我

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♥ Happiness in a nutshell
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Down the memory lanes ♥

不药而愈
等你等到了冬季

雪飘进了我眼里

我试图去寻找爱情

和我们之间的关系

套上了你的毛衣

心更加冻结成冰

如果我先放弃爱情

我的痛会不会变得不药而愈

看伤心不能痊愈

我始终相信爱你的勇气

明明说好是两个人一起去的旅行

怎么剩下我一个人欣赏孤寂

看伤心慢慢痊愈

我会好好的安慰我自己

宁愿相信你只是突然改变了决定

去了另一个美丽城市也等着我入境

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♥ Happiness in a nutshell
15:54

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Down the memory lanes ♥

New lease of life & woke up to senses....

It's been thisssSSssSSSS long that i have not been typing away rattling about what's

what's going on & happening in my life... Yay, now i finally had the time to really face the com's
screen doing 'MY' stuffs and not typing away on the keyboard doing WORK.... It's been really
stressful for me the past few weeks.... i'm facing crisis after crisis, i can't remember the days
without it.... Ever since the day he left me till right now..... Crisis not resolve as yet, but i really
cannot let myself go on without putting a fight to the crisis and let it pulled me down.... It's really
tough when u only have urself and nobody else to fight the crisis with you... However, i believe
it has minimise effect of hurt if i didn't even put on the fight...

Crucial 2 months, it'll determine my fate and destiny, i would just tk things at a step & time,

If it still fails, i'll admit defeat but at least with lesser pain... Well, wish me luck and the results
will formalise in the last of sept. Alright, quite a bad start of the blog i suppose, here's the happy
occasion... Went Bkk for a short weekend holidays, celebrated bee's 23rd bdae with her... Get to
see Yee though strangers, but at least gt to see how she's doing... Thanks to Bee.... Exams over...
Get to rest for awhile.... But not sure if i have the funds to go on, hopefully i can... And casual
outings, meetups.... Just celebrated Dearie Jean's bdae last night... good to see her and Jess,
loved them cuz they booked me on 30 Aug to celebrate mine....

Upcoming events are Hua and Hic gang, they booked me on my actual.... Shan & gang

would be celebrating mine at same old place on a week's earlier... Den came Shan bdae.... Wen
meeting me for KTV session.... Ting's celebration coming up too.... got her the gift, not yet
collected, specially flown in from US. Haa.... Yearning for my pink slim PSP, lol ( SPonsors: the 4
little devils). Conclusion: August, super duper broke.... haa.... Watched The mummy 2 on thurs'
night with Baby, Jovian and Hua... haa... Nice... Kinda of looking forward yet sad for my bdae....
Cuz getting older and older.. Haiz.... Time's running out and no enough.... If i learnt to utilise my
time better.... But it's never too late to start now... When there's a will, there's a way, and i wld
serve with a servant's heart....

Time to go..... ciaoz.... I wish for a new lease of life and chance and happiness to be with all

my frens.... Few have found, more to come please.....
* No fotos to upload, Qibin don't wanna give me.... =(

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