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♥ Starsign, Virgo

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♥ A Degree

♥ Successful future

♥ A Guardian Angel

♥ Pass my Car License

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♥ To Slim Down by OCT 2010!!!!!!

♥ HongKong Retreat

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♥ a plasma TV & soundsystem

♥ a place of my own

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♥ More Clothes, Shoes, bags, accessories

♥ More Money

♥ More beauty products

♥ More knowledge, wits & experience

♥ More self confidence

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♥ More of a little in everything

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♥ Wednesday, April 16, 2008

Down the memory lanes ♥

Haven't been updating for a while... Life goes on as usual, routinely work, home, outing with

friends.. Seeing this word, it sparks me to deep thoughts how many more friends have i left?
Those that i hang out with all the time? Those that i keep close to my heart? Those that i know
them by name? Which of the category i personally belongs to? None of it, one of it? I don't know..
I'm upset that i wasn't able to be there for them when they're troubled.. i wasn't able to be the
one that they would turn to..

It's all because i wasn't one of those that they thought of when they need listening ear,

wasn't those that they would want to share their inner feelings to.. And the most important
factor, i made them lost their faith in me... All because i wallow in self-pitying and procastination,
because i lost one important person that caused me to lose more important ones... I've gone on
to realise that it wasn't easy to face up reality, but sometimes there are times when u know it
deep down in you that you are indeed in reality, a matter of factly cruelly.... There's really
nothing you can do but to accept and live with it... Life's very short, i started to realise now...

In fact, i've felt that time is running out for me, for whatever reasons i just feel this way...

I suddenly found myself to have so much things that i want to accomplish but time is the factor,
monetary is the factor, even place is the factor... It came to a point that i had been such a failure,
that i had missed so many phrases of life because of the very bad decision i've made that
resulted in where i am now, today..... I don't wanna go on this way anymore, i'm trying very hard
to change and mould myself to where i wanna be in the near future... There's nothing, no one
stopping me, why do i feel that i'm moving forward but it felt like backwards?? I'm weary of it
already, just when i thought i saw light for the very moment, clouds or dark will befall on me.
Where should i go? What am i supposed to do? How am i gonna face myself? I can't even bear to
see myself in the mirror.. I'm hating myself so much to the core.... I'm screaming deep dwn,
would anyone hear?

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