♥ Down the memory lanes

♥ That Storyteller

♥GerNice Lim♥.

♥ Breathing till date, 25yrs

♥ a day to cRy, 29 Aug

♥ Status, freely

♥ Starsign, Virgo

♥ That Cravings

♥ A Degree

♥ Successful future

♥ A Guardian Angel

♥ Pass my Car License

♥ Lasik Surgery

♥ Good Health

♥ Dreams & Wishes come true

♥ To Slim Down by OCT 2010!!!!!!

♥ HongKong Retreat

♥ Taiwan Retreat

♥ Japan Retreat

♥ Korea Retreat

♥ Europe Retreat

♥ a plasma TV & soundsystem

♥ a place of my own

♥♥hearts more of♥♥

♥ More self Pampering Treats

♥ More Clothes, Shoes, bags, accessories

♥ More Money

♥ More beauty products

♥ More knowledge, wits & experience

♥ More self confidence

♥ More younger & pretty always, lolxx =D

♥ More of a little in everything

♥ Chitty Chatty

♥ Expressionists

♥ Mesmerises ♥

♥ Memories

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♥ Ears Soothing

♥ My Emotions song ♥

Music Playlist at MixPod.com

♥ Friday, May 30, 2008

Down the memory lanes ♥

SEX & THE CITY

Tomorrow is my company's Annual Team Building day... *Boo* I have never been to a team

building before, and i have absolutely no idea how does it look like or work like.. All the idea that

i have was that to play games to nuture each other's rapport in the company.. Well, i would keep

my fingers crossed for the time being... As the organising department is my department, yet a

sad news was, my manager's mum passes away this morning hence she won't be able to join us..

And i have to take over the duties of hers, i was wondering how on earth am i gonna make it..

We'll see how, hopefully i won't let my manager down...

Just catched SEX & THE CITY with hua at Jp, the movie was lovely, touching and it trigger

my tear glands. It was really great, it reflected so many truths about lifes now in the world... And

what's admiring was the spirit of the friendship the 4 of them shared... And also, the bond they

had, imagine 2o yrs down the road and being mums or even single, would we still be like what

the movie reflected? Dressing up and keeping oneself in good shape, still falling in love and facing

crisis... This made me think of what i have, i used to be a happy ger, with lovely and supportive

girlfriends around me... But now... Love indeed conquers all, there is one phrase in the movie

quoted, " She was a clever ger till she falls in love... " This deeply knock into me... And also the

scene that reflects Carrie was dumped and humiliated, the gers went to the honeymoon with her

their friendship was so strong, they had their fair share of woes.. and they did their best to be

with her....

This reminds me of how they had tide with me over that period, how they supported and be

there for me.... but now it's all gone... This movie really made me reflect... I'm emotional,

regretful, and some sorts of feelings which i couldn't describe in words.... I so wanted to apologise

in person... I wanted to treasure once again..As for the love part, i had my doubts, i might be the

one that remains single while the rest of the 3 is happily in pairs... As long as i know how to love

myself... I don't know for this, but i'm keeping my fingers crossed....

I love this picture, i wish that there would be one day, this would be 'us'....

Labels: forgiveness 'n' Love..., Friendship

♥ Happiness in a nutshell
01:30

♥ Tuesday, May 20, 2008

Down the memory lanes ♥

Ponder deep into my heart....

In my mind, recently there had been lots of activities going on.... My activities meaning

actively pondering on topics, feelings that i had been avoiding for the longest of time... It does not help much with the amount of boozes that i've taken to avoid them further... In my heart, i've

not been listening to it for the longest of time ever that i could remember when is the last time

i've listen to the whisper it had given me.. I chose to shut it all out, and listen to my atrocious

mind which landed me in the current state i'm in...

I do not had the courage to go in to my heart and listen to it speaks from the bottom of it...

I had loses the courage to listen and heed the whispering that it has been trying so hard to tell...

I am still in a mess, which i believe by downing more boozes than ever could prevent me from

hearing my heart cried... Instead, it open up it even more hurt than i myself could handle it..

Hiding in one corner of my heart is still utmost agony and pain that i had force myself not to

touch it.. The urge of crying, breakdown is no longer that strong, because i believe in order to

make myself stronger, i cannot let my tears flow in front of anyone anymore... not even myself...

I only let the tears flow silently in my heart... No matter how much happiness the past have

given me, i had to live in present, for future... The past is past, nothing can turn it back to

become present, i understand fully this thoery behind.. And i know it vividly in my head that it is

what to look out for the future and present instead of living in the past myself while others had

gone way ahead of me forgetting the past, awaiting the future...

我需要勇气继续走下去。。。但失去了的勇气该如何找回来??

Sunday, had an enjoyable catching up with qibin and Jiayi... And we met guan there

coincidentally... =) Here's some pictures we took on that night....

Labels: Courage...

♥ Happiness in a nutshell
16:29

♥ Saturday, May 17, 2008

Down the memory lanes ♥

CrossRoads...

In life, there are many crossroads when we had to chose at the very moments...

In crossroads, there is either left, right or straight, never the possibility to go backwards...

applying the same logic in time and moment of an incident.... This has been deeply in my thought

these few days... I do not know the reason, but i encounter many crossroads in my entire life...

and how many times did i make or made the right direction of decision... sad to say, often non, i

tend to and always made the wrong decisions that cost me dearly and nothing left except regrets

.....

I'm a very simple-minded person, but yet i like to dwell on and take unneccesary pains to

study into insoluble and insignificant problems and ended up in dead ends that costs me so much

pain and regrets and hurt to others and nonetheless my very own self... I hate myself in this

sense, i really do... yet i couldn't controlled myself, as this is in my mentality... I owaes think that

in this way or another that i might be able to solve it in my way, but i often ended up getting

stuck and getting into trouble..

This isn't helping me in any sense, i wanted to break free from this.... I'm trying to keep

myself real busy and real occupied these days, i just wanted myself to be in complete situation

that i won't have free time to dwell into unneccesary thoughts which would affect me.. i just

wanna lead a life that is of what that would guide me into my future which i dream of... This is

the only dream and wish that i had left of... And i know i had only myself now and no one else...

I get tired sometimes, and yearn for someone whom i can depend and lean on when i need some

rest and breather... but i realise that this is so far away from me, my frens said that i had closed

up my heart completely, unable to accept anyone and anything that would enable it to trigger

and open up myself anymore.. which this i won't deny is very very true, i would tend to avoid

such topics and possibilities... But that doesn't meant that i had forgotten that what i have done

wrong, it still etched deeply in my heart, i just do not had the courage to approach them, and

also i do not want to disturb their life and make them feel pertubed that my appearance would

made them uncomfortable once again...

As i deeply understand that they live so much better off without me and they won't had

to be reminded of the wrongs i had done to them. And i guess i understand the taste of

tears, bitterness, sorrows and regrets more than myself...

分岔路口

什么都别说

再说只难过

难受之后

不代表一切伤能带过

当初的承诺已不算什么

夜里吹的风冷进我怀中

不再有你的声音

不再拥有你心

明天我会怎样没人懂

时间真的有疗伤之用吗??

看时间慢慢流出手心

看透你变了的心

如果已决定离我而去

把同情和不舍带走

站在回忆的分岔路口

是时候和你道别

不再苦恼你我之间的错与对

未来的日子只剩我一个人

Not forgetting today is Lirong's 13th Birthday....

Happy Birthday, Missy LiRong!!! May you be a happy and carefree teenager!!!

Labels: 分岔路口.....

♥ Happiness in a nutshell
16:34

♥ Saturday, May 10, 2008

Down the memory lanes ♥

Tough Tides....

The past 2 weeks have been both happy and sad time for me... Let me tell you the happy

occasion... On 5th May 08, Monday, i have witnessed an occasion that i'm so proud and happy

for... Jiayi and i attended our best pal's (Qiuting) ROM at the fort canning... Qiuting, jiayi and i

had been frens for almost 11 yrs since sec sch till now... From the same class, to different class

with jiayi then different route taken for each of us, till where we are now, working in the

society.... We've nvr expect that she wld be the first to get married, cuz she's owaes the shy

and quieter one.. ahaha.. But well, life's very very unpredictable, we witnessed her finding her

happiness and of course we gain another into our trio's grp whom is her hubby, Benjamin...

After that we had a sumptous buffet at Goodwood Park Hotel courtesy from Ting & her

hubby.... And she goes off to her holiday, she's a blissful and gleaming little Mrs Loo now....

Words for Ting's Hubby, Benjamin, You better treat ting as promised to us and in the vows...

lol.... Congratualtions Mr & Mrs Benjamin Loo.... 05 May 08. As for my downs and

unhappiness, few of my closer frens knew abt it... It hasn't been going well for me, that's all...

I had not mentioned to a couple of my frens, bcuz they have their own life to lead and i feel

that i shouldn't go disturb them.. Besides, i do not have much close frens by my side now, lost 2

and the rest are only frens for that place and time... And those few that really remain by me,

can be counted with five fingers.... I am in no postion to complain or fuss, i'm only glad that i

do still that i have pple standing by me during the tough and difficult times.. It's enough &

comforting enough already, they knew who they are... And i'm really grateful for that.... I've

been through the lowest point already, this won't matter to me.... I juz want to go on and

emerge stronger at the end... This is all i asked for...

Alright, some pics to remind of the happy occasion....

Labels: when will i see light again????