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♥ That Storyteller


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♥GerNice Lim♥.

♥ Breathing till date, 25yrs

♥ a day to cRy, 29 Aug

♥ Status, freely

♥ Starsign, Virgo

♥ That Cravings



♥ A Degree

♥ Successful future

♥ A Guardian Angel

♥ Pass my Car License

♥ Lasik Surgery

♥ Good Health

♥ Dreams & Wishes come true

♥ To Slim Down by OCT 2010!!!!!!

♥ HongKong Retreat

♥ Taiwan Retreat

♥ Japan Retreat

♥ Korea Retreat

♥ Europe Retreat

♥ a plasma TV & soundsystem

♥ a place of my own

♥♥hearts more of♥♥

♥ More self Pampering Treats

♥ More Clothes, Shoes, bags, accessories

♥ More Money

♥ More beauty products

♥ More knowledge, wits & experience

♥ More self confidence

♥ More younger & pretty always, lolxx =D

♥ More of a little in everything

♥ Chitty Chatty



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♥ Wednesday, November 26, 2008

Down the memory lanes ♥

元卫觉醒 - 鸵鸟


你说不爱了

于是我就承担

不问我心里想的是相反

阳光很灿烂

我却笑不出来

它让我看清楚你已离开

我忍着悲伤和无奈

就躲在房间不出来

无法阻挡

时间在快转

只能把爱

藏在回忆深海

不想面对的事

学着习惯成自然

我会把爱

隐藏到谁都看不出来

它还在继续

却与你无关

你说不爱了

于是我就承担

不问我心里想的是相反

阳光很灿烂

我却笑不出来

它让我看清楚你已离开

那动人完美的独白

没说完你就先离开

就算遗憾我也不推翻

只能把爱

藏在回忆深海

不想面对的事

学着习惯成自然

我会把爱

隐藏到谁都看不出来

它还在继续

却与你无关

这不是鸵鸟的心态

只是我还无法释怀

我还爱你再不会说出来

只能把爱

藏在回忆深海

不想面对的事

学着习惯成自然

我会把爱

隐藏到谁都看不出来

它还在继续

却与你无关

只能让爱

离开回忆深海

不想面对的事

只能学着习惯成自然

对你的爱

沉默了

我却还在依赖

你要的幸福

却与我无关

你要的幸福

却与我无关


Sometimes i wonder, if the best person who noes me in this world is Hanwen... Haa, some way or another, i feel that he almost share the same thinking or feeling as me.... I meantby procatination... We somehow share a same instinct of melancholy... can't help feeling this way...



Went Ying's blog and read her post, she mentioned that it seem so impossible for me to return to the seowli she knew in sec sch... suddenly, this caught my attention.... I was thinking hard enough, when is the last time i really laugh or smile from the bottom of my heart....


And thinking back, all past memories of me in sec school came up.... i realise that when i'm in sec sch, my signature is being a very noisy and fun person. My laughter nvr fails to come up and play a part... And i can say that ' 我是一个敢爱敢恨的人,而且也是一个有话敢敢说的人'... And everyone who knew me back then, knew me as a person who loves to laugh, and fun-loving person.... Maybe as age and cruel reality caught up with me, i started to lose myself.... 我也变得胆小了， 没有那种勇 气去敢敢做， 敢敢讲。。。


Where has this seowli gone to????? Alot of people had mentioned that i had lost myself, and they hope or wished that they can find back the me, which they knew....They said that they cannot see it in me now anymore... How can i not understand the point?? But when i can't even find my usual and old self, how are the others able to find??


I rmbr, in the past i am the one always protecting others.... But now i can't even protect my own self, where do i find the strength to protect others.... I knew that these 2 years, i have been living in self-procastination... this is what i am very well aware of.... But i just can't seem to get out of it.... i don't even have the courage to step over a thin line of hurdle... No matter how much i have been trying to tell myself... Nothing seems to work....


Ying this mentioning, really really gave me a big question mark..... 我何得何能去爱别人， 如果我不懂得爱自己??? 所以我发誓， 只要我不懂得自爱。。。 我就没有资格去爱别人。。。
我不懂这么多久， 但我希望我能够走出自己设下给自己的框。。。。Pray hard for me ba, ying.... i'm moving towards to find my lost self and my way...

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