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♥ Wednesday, June 10, 2009

Down the memory lanes ♥

I do not have the mood to blog... But since i put up a few emo songs, can't helped but felt emo.... Partly because of yesterday's dreams & some of the sentences someone mentioned to me...

It wasn't easy to climb up after falling... When you thought you have the support & encouragement from pple... It doesn't go the way you want sometimes, my boss talked to me during lunch on Monday where there's only the 2 of us... She confided in me her problems she's facing at home & work... It was so not easy for her, a woman to hold up and support a family of her own, paying everything by herself... She told me i need to be independent, so independent that i can't even depend on my mum.. Bcuz she said if i continue to rely, one day, just one day i was hit hard on reality,i would fall badly.. This had really prove the point of mine... I'm so used to relying on pple in the past... I had pple to rely on everytime.. which is why over-relying caused me to fall so badly when he left me...

So badly that i don't know who to live for but him... And my boss is a very strong woman.. She would cry and vent out her frustrations, at the same time she would hang on tight there... doing and moving on by herself... She had husband definately but she nvr rely on him at all... Because she believe a woman needs to be strong enough to handle everything on her own and not rely on anyone but herself.. At least when reality hits, she would still live and brave it on strongly..

I do feel sad by a few statements made by someone close to me... and when i heard it, i didn't showed my emotions out.. I've learnt to control my emotions better and to hide all sad ones in me.. Maybe i'm over sensitive or maybe i'm just not worth her giving a second thoughts when she said that to me.... maybe she's changed and matured.. But the sadness i felt is not something that i think she doesn't think for me or whatever... It's a feeling that cannot be describe easily through words...

I just wanna be myself, and in a way i want to be strong and tough enough to brave no matter what reality hit me.. I have been through some of the worst already, i want to be able to brave though any that comes along the way of my life journey...

I just wanna walk on with my own strength.. childish, yet able to handle any blow that comes along....And becomes strong be it appearance or soul yet not vulnerable inner... This is all i ask for...

寂寞光年

是谁从我天空摘走了星星

一转眼眉头聚满乌云

从来快乐悲伤都自己横行

忘了我也值得被关心

一双手一个梦

一路上不断的俯冲

痛到忘了要怎么喊痛

漫长的寂寞淹没我的难过

我的世界是零下的沙漠

其实我也想要拥抱的温柔

融化这颗坚强的泡沫

漫长的等候让人特别失落

锋锐寂寞把天空都割破

还有谁能够紧握着我的手

陪着我期待消失的彩虹

是谁将阳光都剪成了雨滴

天灰了快乐总有限期

从来都陷在孤独的流沙里

忘了我也配被人在意

一个人一直走看着梦像做了又空

精疲力尽有没有哪里可以停泊

漫长的寂寞淹没我的难过

我的世界是零下的沙漠

其实我也想有拥抱的温柔

融化这颗坚强的泡沫

漫长的等候让人特别失落

锋锐寂寞把天空都割破

还有谁能够紧握着我的手

陪着我期待消失的彩虹

那是谁的温柔留在我的小手

微不足道却那么重

漫长的寂寞把意志都吞没

整个世界是沉默的漩涡

有谁能陪我手牵着手出走

带我离开空洞的星球

还有什么值得追求

还有什么可以拥有

把怀抱借给我是不是就不再颤抖

有谁能带走这美丽的哀愁

能让我相信被爱的理由

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