Precious time
It's been 2 months since i last blog, was unsure if there's anyone reading it.. that does not really matter, i just wanted to have a space on my own to rant all my thoughts and also to reminisce and reflect in the future when i read them through all over again..
Time is really flying in rocket speed... In a blink of an eye, 25 years of my time has past.... i'm really pondering hard what have i been up to all these 10 years since i graduated from Secondary school... It's like ever since i step into the society and work till now i have yet to accomplish anything as yet.. I don't know over the years what have i gathered, perhaps some working experience or maybe even none... This is what many relate to as Mid-twenties crisis i suppose... That you've reached the mid twenties age gauge and yet you are still wondering and thinking hard of what have you achieve or what would you like to achieve? I guess i'm starting to feel it now?.. As i am thinking of leaving my current job and company yet i do not know what should i go for next... This is driving me nuts, firstly the work load now i am handling is so heavy and stressful... secondly, i hate to have the feeling of dragging myself to work the moment i open my eyes in the morning, yet at the same time am grateful that i managed to open my eyes to another brand new day... this means that i'm alive and i had the chance to live for another day... which is whatever the reason that made me leave my bed and prepare for work and the moment i reached my workplace, the energy level straight away reduce to 20% of what i am when during weekends...this is really crazy....
Alright, enough if ranting on of work, i'll deal with this issue abit later at the very least after my exams.. meanwhile for livelihood, i'll grit my teeth and bear with it for the moment though i'm jolly well aware that my appriasal is coming up... bleahzzzz.... I'll work hard and mug for my exams after this post.. hehe.. Study hard, work hard and play hard has kinda of become my motto... hahahahah...
Well, why am i ranting on none stop on time is because i have been affected badly on death.. In the past, i am a stupid fool that wanted to end my life with the lousiest reasons... and yet for now i am striving hard to cherish whatever time i have left and pray to god to not take me away so fast as i still had lots not being done yet... 2 days ago, my neighbour had ran over an old lady while she's crossing her road... It happened at the juntion between Huiyee's and my house, the tragedy happened early in the morning around 7.15am.. Both parties are pitiful as the old lady is dead and my neighbour, the sole-breadwinner of his household has to be jailed and punished for his mistakes... I pity the both of them as i am sure nobody would want this to happened... And myself i am so happy and excited in learning driving... because the instructor said i am picking it up quite fast as a lady.... I have already drove out to the main road during the 2nd lesson.... And the next day i came upon this news, furthermore i saw the old lady being covered in White cloth when i passed by...
It's so saddening and scary that life is so fragile... so fragile that it cannot take any blows at all.... But life as it is, our lifespan are pre-destinated the moment we arrive in the world.. Hence, there isn't much time of ours to be wasted on unimportant matters... I don't wanna be a poor woman when i leave this world.... poor does not meant in monetary comparison, but in kinship, relationship and friendship.. i believe even i had the whole of world's money, without kinshipm relationship and friendship, one had wasted his/ her life living....
For now, this is what i believe in.. alright back to mugging.... Update again when i had the time as Dec 09 is gonna be a busy month for me but i am loving it as my closure of this year would be a nice one.. Hopefully the next year i'll be better.... i'll definately give a closure to year 2009 before it ends... Nites for now.. till we meet again... =)
Labels: Memories are limted... cherish the good ones...
